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Time...it holds everything in order, people are able to do things because of time, but what about when time works against you?
Because of time, people can become late to a job, miss a child's first b-ball game, miss that chance to be with some one.
Time can work with and against us, sometimes time can work for the heart and soul, others it can destroy them.

If you fight for something for a long, torturous year, or longer, only to find that it might all be for nothing, to be left balancing on the edge-tip of a dagger and not sure which way things will go, what will that do to the soul?
I am on that dagger, not sure which way the wind will blow. Will I fall into dark dispair, or enlightened bliss. I can easily walk away from this and suffer less then if I were to fall into darkness, however I am leaving it in the hands of the wind.

The wind will never know how much I love her, no matter which way she chooses. With time, it seems increasingly impossible that things will blow me into bliss, but other feelings must be taken into measures as well.
How could I fall into bliss, if she falls into dispair. How could I live in the light, if she suffers the dark?
But at the moment the wind tells me she doesn't know that if she falls with me if she will be falling into her darkness or bliss. Could she be happier with another or me, that is her perdicament.

But with that perdicament because of the other she has in mind, it makes me wonder just what I mean to her. Stories from the lips of the wind of her other, things she constantly complains about, makes me wonder just how I could be on equal grounds with a jerk. From all the bad things the wind has said, just how do I measure up to some one that bad?