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Life...
The biggest gift and the biggest curse. There are 2 things that drive people to live, pain and pleasure. But what happens to someone when they begin to lose their drive to live? They become a shell, until even the shell cannot stand it anymore. That is what we are, funny enough the name of the anime, Ghost in the Shell, explains humans. Our bodies are the shell and our spirits are the ghosts.
My ghost, my reasons for living are finally deminishing. The few things that continue to make me live are beginning to seem less and less worth this pain. The future, is not looking too bright. It is looking lonely, poor, and worthless... So why go on?
The future of the current world even seems to be ready to end, as the world continues to deminish in it's health because of human actions. Why continue to go on, while even if we get better socially the world still ends up dieing? Our world, our teacher, our home and our mother continues to die. Is there honestly any more point in living? Some will say it is to ready our souls for heaven, but what for those who don't nesicerily believe in it? For the agnostics who don't believe in any religion, but won't try to disprove any either. What do we do?

I live only for other people...I know it doesn't do any good to just complain about it, to try and make things better for myself, to change my mind about the pain, to forget my past and move on like so many others have...To get up and stop complaining about it and do something, but I feel like I have nothing else to do.