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Right now i'm listening to Relient K. It's been too long, it really has. Lately whenever I'm listening to music now I stick with one group for at least a week. And Relient K's been down on my list. But i clicked on my profile today (which i rarely do, just in case you're wondering) and music started playing, and guess what, it was Relient K and i thought, gee, When was the last time i listened to that? So i opened up my little rhapsody music playing dealio and searched my library for some relient k. The weird thing is, all the songs on the "mmhmm" cd are mis-named so i was looking for High of 75 and when i clicked on it it started playing I So Hate Consequences. Which is actually one of my favorites. So now i'm listening to that. A whole paragraph on music, just what you wanted, right? Moving on.
Lately i've been neglecting my journal. The handwritten one, i mean. Well, i've neglected both, truth be told. But i remember at the beginning of summer i used to write about how i'd keep updated with that journal now that i have hardly anything else to do. Well, i lied. Big surprise there, right? And i've always favored typing things up on journals rather than writing by hand. I'm tons quicker at that. And i hardly ever go off on random subjects in my written journals because it takes long enough to just write about the basics of my life WITHOUT my random thoughts so usually the randomness comes here. I just leave out specific details on this. But that's fine with me, because at least i always know what i'm talking about. So, the thought on my mind.
Am i losing my grip on what's normal and what's not? Because when epic things happen to me i've always got two sides of myself arguing. One side says "oh my god, did you just see that? WHAT THE HELL?" and the other side is saying "shut up, it's nothing. No big deal at all". And these parts of myself have really been at each other's throats lately. So do other people have other levels of what's normal and what's not? Do you grow accustomed to weirdness when you live a weird life? I know there's still a perfectly sane part of me. But sometimes that sane part gets lost for a little while and it forgot to leave the darned trail of breadcrumbs to find it's way back.
I wonder about people a lot. Like what's going through their mind. And do they think about what goes through other people's minds too? Are we all just wondering what's on the next guys mind? why don't we all just spill our guts so the wondering can stop. Not going to happen.
I've been thinking also about the way we all act around different people. I mean, i know there's too major parts of me. The part that likes to go a little crazy and goof around to make people smile and the part that's dead serious about everything. Different people trigger different parts. Some people get both parts.
Sometimes i'm afraid to trust people.
Okay, i'm done for the day. Wasn't that insightful?
~krissy.