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Hm. So i was checking my email and there's one of those forwards from someone, and the subject says "plz read this! it's really sad!!".. okay...um. who else doesn't see the sense in saying that? because why on earth would i want to read a sad forward? why would i want to read a forward PERIOD? yeah. pointless. as is most everything lately.
You know, sometimes when i write journals, i write them with someone in mind. like i imagine who i'm talking to, and aim that journal towards that person. only i never tell anyone whether the journal is for them. weird, huh? So perhaps you should keep reading. because maybe this journal is for you. Though i doubt i'd ever tell you, even if you asked me. Guessing games are fun, are they not?
I haven't been very happy lately. Mostly i fake it a lot. It's pretty easy. Until things come crashing down on you. that's when the faking kind of goes out the window and then i just want to curl up and cry. There is someone though that eases my unreasonable pain. I don't exactly know why it works..but it does. Other times i'll have short little bursts of real happiness. but of course, after you appear happy for a whole minute, if you turn that around and let the true emotions show then people will think your incredibly weird. (ha, lost cause, right?) So then i have to follow it up with other laughs and false smiles. ah, yes. life is oh-so-good right now.
Well i suppose i'll wrap this up. i've gotten a few complaints about my overly-lengthy journals. so maybe more people will read them now that this is shorter...
~Kristina..