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Hmm. Earlier during the break it seemed like it was going to take forever, and really i was pretty anxious to get back to school. But now I have school again tomorrow and I'm not all that sure that I want to go. Not that I have a choice or anything. But I'm not really..as excited for it anymore..yeah, excited for school..imagine that! Sadly enough, i think the only thing I'll really miss about break is sleeping in. Because the rest of my day has been pretty boring this past two weeks. I mean, yes, i've done a few fun things, but still. It would be better to get to see my friends every day, rather than once a week. bleeh.. I'm kind of grumbly today, i'm sorry. I'm not really in a 'fun' mood or anything.
I still have my christmas tree up. Isn't that weird? yes. its weird. I wish it were down. strangely enough, Christmas trees depress me sometimes.. yes, thats REALLY weird. I know. But they just...hmm. how can i put this to make sense? okay, well Christmas trees really DONT make sense, so i won't even bother! i mean, really, why put up a DEAD TREE in your house? "woo, look at my dying tree, its GORGEOUS, is it not?" uugggh. well, my tree's fake. Anyone looking at my tree would probably instantly feel depressed, because its rather pitiful, if i do say so myself. I used to put up a little tree in my bedroom. I used to like christmas, no, i ADORED christmas. It was my favorite holiday. Do I have a favorite holiday now? hmm...I..well, i dont know. Hmm. lets go through memorable holidays, and i'll see if i can pick. okay..umm..none in January. Okay, Valentines day is a no, that one's not all that great. Well, i really like the conversation heart boxes, those things are delicious, but that's not that special and the holiday itself is just...bleh. next holiday. April Fools day? or is it easter? well, easter is just..no. we don't really celebrate that. april fools day, yes, we DO celebrate it, but..hmm.. it's just not suitable as a favorite holiday. next holiday. umm. My birthday. ha. no that shouldnt count. thats not really a holiday. I do like getting older though. I feel as if i should be a LOT older by now but i'm stuck in a younger persons body. ooh "host" moment. haha, if you only knew, right..anyhoo. um. hrmm..Fourth of July, yes, that's the one that i like best i think. I love fireworks and especially firecrackers. It's great having the thrill of lighting something then trying to run away in time. Oh, i read a book once about a girl who died from a firecracker. It was kind of sad, but an excellent book. It was a ghost book. i love ghost books. I've always loved ghosts. I don't know why. hmm. I wonder if I'll ever be a ghost. would i want that? It would be nice to stick around a bit after i was gone i suppose. to see how everyone i know is doing. ooh, this journal's getting a little too weird for you, isn't it? i'm sorry. I'll stop with the ghost stuff now.
Hm. what was I talking about in the beginning of this? one moment, i think i'll check. Oh, i was talking about going back to school. right. Hmm. Forget about the school subject. i just got distracted again by my "hmm". Do i hum a lot? or is that just when i right? maybe its more of an inside my mind sort of deal. yes. definately it is. lol. um. well. I'm thinking that i'm going to stop writing now. Well, at least on here. I have other things i need to think about that i'd rather not post for everyone in the world to see. goodbye.
~Krissy
p.s. i just glanced back through my note, and Yes, I DO go "hmm" a LOT!