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i dont know whats wrong...but i do. i just dont know WHY its wrong. and i dont understand why i cant let it go. i miss being blissfully happy. and it wasnt even that long ago. i was happy yesterday. but the feelings are always there under the surface. i try to hide from them, but it doesnt work. i always think at night. and then i cant sleep. my dreams dont satisfy me anymore. i'm always hoping that i'll dream of what i want to for a change, but it doesnt happen. its amazing how dreams can seem so real. but your imagination cant...i hate that. i feel like i'm about to cry, but i never do. sometimes i feel better after i cry. but i cant force tears to fall. it just doesnt work that way. and then as soon as someone spots my bluff, and asks whats wrong, i crumble. you would think by now i would be over it. but i'm not. i dont think i can...






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Cynthiasideways
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commentCommented on: Sat Jun 28, 2008 @ 02:54am
you're having bad dreams?
jeez, i'm really sorry...


commentCommented on: Sun Jun 29, 2008 @ 08:10pm
..not quite bad. just meaningless and pointless. i dont like my dreams anymore.



fancy-painted-boats-
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Meowh
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commentCommented on: Mon Jun 30, 2008 @ 03:31am
Man, I just had a really terifiying one. It was about like a gang war in Mexico. And I was one of those innocent people, but I had to hide anyway, and I was watching people die in front of me.
Ugh. THAT has to have a meaning to it. But it was one of those dreams thats so terrible, you want to continue it to see if your safe or not..


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