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I try to look on the bright side of things I really do, but sometimes it gets so damn hard. Yesterday Kain came over to my place to help take care of me, he even helped me with my laundry and he cooked. I'm grateful for that.*smiles slightly*

Today I had to go to school to take my midterm for my desktop publishing class and unfortunately I have to turn my thumbnails and research for my next project in late. I really hate feeling this sick, I can't think logically or creativally beyond the basics. It doesn't help that at every turn my head keeps ringing with the phrase "I really miss my mommy." At this point I feel like a weak child and even after two years there's still that part of me that asks for her in that small voice deep in the pit of my heart.

I know that there are those who've had it worse than me and I know that even now, my life is better than it's been before, but it feels good, it's almost a relief to tell someone that it hurts right now. I feel relieved to express that I'm in pain, physically and emotionally. I don't really expect a response to this post, although I would appreciate it. The whole point is I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks to anyone who listened.

*cough cough* Hears to hoping for good health for myself and my loved ones,
-Yume