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hello hello. i'm sure your sick of me by now. oh well too bad. once again, i'm bored. and also very hungry. particularly hungry for frech toast sticks. they can be quite addicting you know. but i already finished them off yesterday. so now i'm sitting here wishing that i could have saved just one more french toast stick for today. lol. a very serious problem isnt it? i'm turning 14 in 5 more days! i cant wait. i think from 13 to 14 is a big jump. i mean think about it, when you turn 13 you have just started being a teenager and no one really considers it. they still say that your a kid. but at 14 you have already had experience at being a teenager. hmm i'm not making sense am i? i mean what does a birthday matter. as celeste once said all you get to do is call yourself something new. woo hoo. fourteen. its just a word. so why does it matter? do any of your birthday wishes ever come true? mine dont. how depressing. but i never thought all that hard about what i wanted when the time came to blow out my candles. but if you wish for something really hard, with all your heart, will it come true? what if your wishing for the wrong thing? but you just dont know it yet? i used to pray for something i realy wanted and when it didnt come true i was wondering why god never answered the prayer. but now that i think about it... i'm actually glad that he didnt. my life is better this way. he knows what he's doing, unlike me. i'm still nieve to so many things. that kind of sucks. i hate not knowing things. and i really hate being wrong. being wrong about little things doesnt matter so much but if its something that will actually have an impact on your life...then yeah. confused hmm.....i think about things too much. lol.
~jacky