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Okay, so I really things are totally turning around for me right now. I know, that seems silly for me to say that today even though I've had days of sudden motivation before. Yep, nothing new!

But now I know what I'm going to do: I'm finally going to get all of my art supplies together and start working on a big mural project for my wall that I've been wanting to do. This is actually going to be quite a simple work, but it's definitely going to be my biggest so far.

Secondly, I am going to *force* myself to start writing in my journal more, and cultivating my past writings for a new poem I want to write for my lover Soko-chan. Lately I've been having some tough times, and she's been keeping me from getting too far down. Ever felt so horrible that you can't sleep, can't eat, can't find a legal drug to help you, and all you feel is agony and pain? Ever felt that way and then started to think of a song you really love, and it makes you feel slightly less horrible, and it's the best feeling in the world to finally feel better rather than worse? Well, I've had a few of those times, and lately Soko has been the song that plays through my head that keeps me going. She's that one thing that reminds me that I'm not all alone in this, so I'm going to try to channel that great feeling she gives me into some art that I can give back to her.

Also, I've decided to totally clean up my room and get more organized. I know I always clean constantly and I'm pretty good about that, but I mean I want to totally change the aesthetic of my living. This includes a new policy of having a 100% clear desk and only using the space next to it for my art supplies. Secondly, I want to rethink my diet. I have some things I'm doing right, but I want to switch to something even more healthy and more vegetarian than I'm eating now. So even though my goal is to eat a wider variety of foods, I want a greater percentage of my kitchen to be vegan and vegetarian. I for some reason feel very passionately about the environment and keeping peace with our earth. Maybe it's only an aesthetically pleasing experience knowing that no animal was raised just to die for me, but I'd like to think it's in general just a more healthy lifestyle to not support those businesses which are potentially disgusting like KFC, [********] KFC!

Next up, once I get my s**t together is of course to study my a** off and get my self together so I can look for a job this weekend. Wish me luck! 3nodding