I can't seem to stand it... I don't feel attractive... I even figured out what role I'd get if I ever became an actress... you know what it is? A girl dressing like a guy all her life for some reason or another... I weigh almost as much as Anna Nicole Smith, and she was 4 inches taller than me! ;-; I feel fat... and ugly... and weird... No guys around me want to date me... and if they do, they're all shy, so they don't want to ask... ~cries~ And then watching movies has been pissing me off... Cus all these guys I watch movies for are so cute... but would they date me? No... not really... could I ever be with them? No, most of them are married or in an extremely tight relationship... I feel terrible... And I don't want those stupid jerks that go "Oh, you should love yourself for who you are!" cus it's bullshit. No one really believes it... But idiots still say it... Most of life is a lie...
I want a boyfriend... one that's close to me... one that absolutely loves being around me... but is clingy enough that I won't feel bad when I have to dump him... How on earth do I date like that as a High School student?!!? mew... I don't know how or who I should date... Mew... ~sighs~
Nik_Eighteen Souls United Community Member 
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