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what i needed:
i need a guy that was like me, someone to actually have a converstation with out me having to explain what i meant. He understod what i was talking about. Someone to laugh with about the most random things, and not think i was weird. Someone to be there for me, because i always wanted to be there for him.
What it was like with him:
He was my idea of a perfect guy. he was there, he talked to me, he understod me. But i guess it wasn't meant to be. I trusted him, but i guess i doubt my self and that's what killed us... We laughed, we cried, we talked, we opened up to each other... he understod me, and i felt i understood him...
What it's like now he's gone:
I still care about him, but it's hard to move from girlfriend to just a friend.
i mean when i saw him, i didn't know what to do.. i wanted to hug him, but afraid to get attatched again. i really care about him but afraid that he as moved on... not careing about me... sometimes i just wonder if he does still have a place in his heart for me?
What i learned:
i learned heart break and that there has to be a guy that is out there for me... my friend told me if i though he was the most awsome guy that i have ever had as a boyfriend, just imagine how awsome and perfect the guy that i'm suppost to be with will be like...
i learned that saying i love you i guess isn't enough..
i learned to know how to truely trust people for who they are...
i learned just how important it is to understand
i learned that hopeless love and broken love is as cruel as a broken glass on the beach...
- it starts sharp and can hurt, but over time, it'll be the most beautiful thing out of the crashes of the world.
I learned that i still really love him and that there will always be a special place in my heart for him
i learned that i have the most important friends in the whole world...