Sometimes I wonder if all of this is even worth it.
I've hurt so many, I've annoyed countless people, and I've hurt myself.
I get so tired of crying myself to sleep, you know?
I'm scared of love, I'm terrified of trusting anyone.
No one completely understands how it feels to be a male in a female body, with a mother who thinks it's a phase.
A sister who shuns you for changing your middle name.
A father who doesn't know, because if he did, I'm afraid he'd be disappointed in me.
I can't promise anyone that I've stopped harming myself one way or another.
I've gone a year without cutting..I broke that.
I went 6 months without cutting..broke THAT.
Went another year without cutting..it ended too.
It's not that simple to just stop it and be all happy-peppy...it's part of my mental illness and gender dysphoria stress.
 Malevolent Glare · Sun Dec 19, 2010 @ 09:54pm · 0 Comments |
