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You know it seems to me that the only time people speak up and tell someone how much they love them is when that person either gets into a severe accident or passes away. But why can't people show that love all the time? I know it seems silly and you're probably thinking, "Well they should know that I love them. Why should it be a constant reminder? Isn't that more of a bother than anything?" Well it's not. Sometimes people just need a reminder. And not just a simple "I love you lol". Sometimes people need more than that. Sometimes they need a "You know I really care about you. And I don't know what I'd do without you." Or as cheesy as it may seem a simple "I'm so happy I met you."
I don't remember where I heard this, it was either a movie, a book, or a story someone told me. A woman was very depressed and didn't seem to have a lot of friends, just her best friend and her husband or boyfriend. And every year on her birthday, that man would say "I'm so happy you were born." And the woman was able to live another day. Now that is love.

As my favorite singer Jason Mraz sings, "It is our godforsaken right to be loved."

But sometimes people lose sight of that. They get wrapped up in all the bad things that they lose sight of the good things. They only think "why me, why are things only going down. And when things cant get any worse they do." And trust me, I know all too well how that feels. And upon feeling like that we forget how much people really do love us. We forget all the lives that we may or may not have touched. We forget the difference, no matter how slight, we made on someone. Even if it was only one person.
We forget what we mean to someone, we forget to realize how prescious life is, and we think "If only I could just get away and never have to feel this way again." People may think it is ridiculous for people to feel this way and may shake their heads at the very thought. But it is the truth. And sadly, people act on those impulses. Rather then try to think logically they simply think, "I can end it and never have to feel this way again." not realizing how big of a mistake they are making.
I know that when you reach that point it is hard to think positive. It is hard to think things will get better. I myself have yet to even believe in what I just said. In fact in writing this I feel like a complete hypocrite. But that's okay. Because it needs to be said.
We need to learn to go out of our way to tell someone how much they really mean to us. Rather than just assume that they already know it. Sometimes we all just need a little reminder. Everyone forgets things, that is why they have memo pads and organizers. Being loved is no different. We forget how much we are loved. We forget how to love. We feel like there is no love. I feel like there is no love. But I know there is. For everyone.

"It is our godforsaken right to be loved."

We just need a little reminder is all.
Spead the love, remind someone how much they mean to you. Someone may look happy and giddy on the outside, but everyone wears masks. I smile and say I'm fine. Somedays i'm thankful I only talk to my friends through the internet and texting. Because if I saw them in person, or if I spoke to them on the phone, they would hear the crack in my voice and see the sorrow in my eyes.
Being away at school all by yourself, you get used to not being seen by others around you. And by not being seen you begin to only exist and not live. And in existing thoughts and emotions come into your head that you cannot control. You start to walk down a tunnel that you cannot see an exit. But a simple reminder, a simple carefully chosen word may help bring you closer to the light.
I have yet to find my light, but I am working on it. And if I did not have the people I have now I probably would not find my light at all.
So here is my reminder to all of you who may have forgotten. I love you all so much. And I don't know what I would do without you. If I never saw your face or heard your voice again I simply don't know what I would do. Thank you so much for being there for me through the best of times and through the worst of times. We will get through any hardship together. Don't be afraid to come to me, and I'll try not to be afraid to ask. I love you all so much.

"It is our godforsaken right to be loved."

I'm sorry I didn't know you very well but I feel out of respect I should say something. So...Rest in Peace Jana. If only you could have known the love everyone shared for you. And if only everyone would have known that you simply needed a reminder.