There have been many emotions swimming around inside of me for the past month it seems. I'm doing this so I can vent.
First off, on Wednesday Jan. 31, my beloved pet rabbit, Twixy, who was only 4 years old, had to be put to sleep. She had nerve damage that was slowly and painfully paralyzing her to death....I had known about this for months, but when mom and I talked about taking her to the vet, something came up that put off the money for a little while longer. Her left hind leg went first, and it slowly went from just not working sometimes to her actually dragging her foot.....finally one morning I went out to fed her and I saw she couldn't even stand because both of her legs went.......mom took her while I was in school, and they said she had irreversable nerve damage, there was nothing anyone could do...they had to put her down. Mom pulled me out early so I could say good bye........*cries*
I've seen a pattern over the past 5-6 months of misfortunes happen to me:
1. My tennis coach moved back to Tonga for good. I know it isn't very big, but he's the closest thing I've ever had to a decent father figure, and it feels like he died even though he just moved back to manage his family and will visit in the summer. And all of his replacements are assholes, so I still deeply miss him.
2. Maddog flew away....and yes, that sadness died down due to the fact that we got a new bird, but I think that missing psyco bird does add a little to the stress
3. Angie died......as some of you might have read in another journal entry, and since I've known her all of my life it's kinda hard to think that she's gone...
4. Newest: Twixy
Now for something of a subject change:
A lot of girls like seph, and I don't care as long as he doesn't cheat on me. But there's this one girl, qt as we call her, that's really starting to bother me. Scratch that, she's been bothering me for months.
She's too obsessed with seph, and it's creepy. "I stopped talking to you 30 seconds ago and I already miss you!" is one of the comments she left on his profile. She's known since the begginning that me and seph are together, yet she still tries to get him to go with her. Finally seph's cousin got through to her, yet she still flirts with him a little too much for my comfort. I've tried to get her to stop, but when I try to get on the subject with her, she all of a sudden has to leave and loggs off. Or, she completely forgets about it and acts like she hasn't a clue as to the fact that I'm bothered about her. I wish she would just accept that seph's taken, and move on.
Well, about my new bird, I've named him Oliver the Ostrich. Why is he an ostrich when he's a senegal parrot? Because when he's on my shoulder, he sticks his head in my hair and just sits there, preening my hair. He's cute, I call him Ollie for short.
now for one other thing: Sauka
Sauka has been my friend for years and is always nice to me, but lately she's been bothering me also. For the past few months (yes, I've been observing all the things not just from Sauka but from everything that's been bothering me for months) I've been interrogated by her for my simple opinions. For example, I mentioned in an earlier journal that I thought pigs were disgusting animals. I have religious backround to thinking that, plus from what I've seen myself. And no, I'm not Jewish, I'm a Sunni Muslim. And just because I'm muslim does not mean that I come from the middle east nor do any of my ancestors. I was born in America, my mother's side has always been here from the time of Columbis, and my father's side is entirely German, so don't call me an Arab, because I'm not, and I've been to the middle east and I hate it all. Anyways, back to the subject on hand, when I said that pigs are gross, she not only tells me that in a comment on my journal entry, but also comes up to me and snaps "You know, pigs arn't disgusting. They can just eat about anything because they can digest it all!" God, sorry for having a ******** opinion!!!!
Another time, she was riding with us because we drop her off at her home after school. I mentioned that I rathered be called "demon" instead of "monster" (this arouse because one of mom's friends calls me her "monster" and I've told him constantly I'd rather be called a demon) I want to be called deamon because monster just sounds masculin to me. I don't know why, it just does. When I voiced this, Sauka asks me "Name one female demon that isn't in a manga or anime"
I replied "I don't know, I'd just rather be called demon."
"But why?"
I voiced my reason, and she said "That's no reason." For god's sakes, what the ******** is wrong for having my own opinions?!?
Oh, and Sauka, if you're reading this, I don't mean to be mean to you, I still want to be friends, I'm just telling you that that has to stop, because it's getting to bother me so and I can't stand it anymore.
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