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ok something happened today that i wish never would have. You know its one of those things that makes you wish that the sun had never come up. It hurts that badly that i wish i had never made the choice to even go out with my boyfriend. Yes if you haven't figured it out yet then your just ******** stupid and you need to get a dr. to check you out or something. But for all you poor souls that really don't know i'll tell you. My boyfriend broke up with me right after school and he had to do this over the phone so that i wouldn't beat the living s**t out of him i guess. I really don't get why people think its ok to break up with someone over the ******** phone. I mean its the worst thing that you can do to someone. I'm shaking so badly right now its hard to even type this up. He even had the nerve to ask me if we could still be friends after this. And I just told him straight out the if he knew me at all at he would know that i have never been friends with any of my ex-boyfriends. Its not that im a b***h or anything like that its just that the guys think that its better that way so i got so used to it and thats how it happens with me now. And he said that he knew that but he didn't care he still wanted to be friends. I said theres no way because i can't just go out with you as friends and stand there and look at you and know how to act. I can't ******** look at someone that i used to go out with and just stand there its impossible for me. And he says that he knew that. I don't believe one word of it myself. But at least i called my best friend Andy and talked to him. Because I knew that he could make me feel at least a little bit better. And i guess it worked but I really need to get out of this house and i know that i can't because my parents are dickheads and won't let me go any where. But i think that i want to go on a walk around and talk to myself out loud. So if you live near me and you see me talking to myself just leave me alone ok. I'm fine just let me go on my way. I FEEL LIKE s**t!!!!!!!! i needed to get that out. Well this is saying goodbye. Jackie over and out.