things... never go as i wish them to... every step i take and every breath feels like a constant struggle... a struggle i always end up losing... i let myself be carried away by hopes and dreams of a better life.... only to have then thrown at my face... my heart hopes... only to get riped into pieces... and still i never learn... it kills me every time it happens... it squeezes my heart so tightly i can't breathe... so why haven't i learned my lesson and shut myself off? it's the only way i won't get hurt anymore... the only way i know i'll get by... and still... i won't listen to my own reasons... and continue to hope... continue to dream... and continue to love... only to have them shattered at my feet again.
when i write this, i am considering of leaving gaia... not forever, but for a long time... and so goes for the rest of the net... MSN... AIM... right now i'm not on conditions to talk nor to do anything else but to take care of my... situation... i will return eventually if i decide to leave...
i'll close my entry before i babble more than i have... have a nice life ppl...
Zauriel the Redeemed · Wed Dec 01, 2004 @ 09:02am · 3 Comments |