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Mom,
You know I've come to realize that I'm a disappointment to you. Well, hell, I'm a disappointment to myself. But, is it really necessary to rub it in? "Oh I'm so proud of your little brother he's so smart..." Blah ******** blah. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of Greg because he's my little brother, but really? I play with the Ohio State Marching Band my sophomore year. You couldn't even stick around for the whole show. I get drum major, The John Phillip Sousa Award, accepted into college and a music and academic scholarship on top of all of that and all you have to say is "good job" from across the country.
I find with every day that passes I'm just not good enough for you. You miss me? If you miss me then why are you trying to financially ******** me over with every chance you get? I might actually be able to come out and visit if you didn't. You sicken me so much to the point I don't even want to talk, see, or even be around you. Why do you think I was so glad when you abandoned me here the beginning of my senior year in high school?
You don't know or even care enough to know half the things I do with my life. Half of the wrong decisions I've made. Where were you when I actually needed you? The only thing I got was a comment over Facebook. What kind of Mom is that?
You couldn't bother to call on Thanksgiving or Christmas. I had to call you late here just to talk to you on both days. Then after I get ahold of you, you proceed to tell me how you've called all my aunts, uncles, and Grandma. What kind of s**t is that Mom? You can call everyone except me?
You've lied to me my whole life. You can try and cover it up Mom, but I know the truth. Between Grandma and Dad, hate to break it to you, I know every gory little detail. Maybe it's a message to learn from your mistakes, but if I've learned anything it's if I'm ever a Mother you've taught me exactly what not to do.
Now don't get me wrong, you're my Mom and I love you... I just wanted to let you know that you've let me down. But I'll learn from it, and I hope you will too. And one day, I hope that things can be better between us. I'll hope that one day that will become a reality.