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I cannot express how I feel..I dont think I really want to.

This computer angers me sometimes. The computer angers me sometimes...

Dont you hate it when you're bored, and you dont know what to do with yourself so you just start thinking, so much you think about everything every little possible thing, every little flaw within yourself and it doesnt stop there, you think about the world, how it will just one day die, you will one day die, we'll all die...be gone like the snap of a finger, you think about it so impossibly, wondering how you actually came to be...Ahhh its all so simple.

Dont you just hate jelousy, the big thing in life that screws us all over to killing, killing one another because you feel GREED...greed screws us all over...just making us HATE...Just because of what we LOVE...I think now that love destroys us, it takes away the harshest of things...sometimes, yet it gives our hearts a clenching feeling, a pained feeling, we do all we can sometimes, just to leave the happiness there, but sometimes we FORGET because we dont want any part of the pain that holds us with the connection.

Dont you hate all of this? Hate...what a cruel word..Unfortunately it does exist. Like we exist, love exists, hate exists, pain exists, happiness exists, power exists. Life...exists.