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well my girl-friend broke up with me about 2 days ago and i know why but at the same time i dont... i love her so much... she is the only thing i think about i hope she changes her mind...in a way i think that for some reason she thinks i dont really care for her like i say i do but i do so frakin' much(not even the heavens can contain this i think)... i wish she would know that for reall and just realize that i will always love her and that i can never be madd at her no matter what... even when she said she wanted to break up with me i just told her i wanted her to be happy... but she keeps crying whenever she sees me and i know she is at her house and i even cried 2 or 3 times and i have not cried in about 10 years... and i never felt this way about anyone before...in a way i think she is confused because i may have been giving her to much love or something that she didnt know how to deal with it cause maybe she was not use of it because she has been having a rather rough life(the past few years)... and well i want to end that rough part of her life and make everthing as happy as i can for her and for her to know i will always be their for her... and i only have one regret about being with her. that i didnt do it months before when i was gunna ask her out but got too shy and couldnt work up the nerve... for the longest time i just was looking at her from time to time just wondering what t would be like and when we started having fun together during school and for our practiuces I was so happy and i felt so good that she felt happy... and i love her so much and when we first started going out i just couldnt even beginn to say any of this... about how much i feel about her or anything... i love her so much i cant help it and think about her all the time... i remember she once asked me about how could i be with soemone that is always depressed and i just thought to myself i love u and i will make u more happier than anyone has ever been... i wont stop loveing her for a long long time.and if something goes wrong or something happens then ill just give more and more love as much as i can.. .. no matter what im their for her.(and i mean it).. and i will do nearly anything for her.(pretty much the only thing i wont do is hurt someone (i just could never do that to an inocient person(whether or not that they deserve it(i love her so much).. i would wait in line for 2 hours for her just to get a snow-ball if she wanted it when it was feezing out and i was in my boxers.(open fly and all).. it sounds funny but i would when she asked without question... i love her so much i just rather wish it was completely the same... she says she has alot of feeling for me i just wish its as much as when we started going out and even more... cause when im with her my love for her grows and grows and its not anywhere near an end... space itself cant contain what i feel for her... if i could i would give her her wish to fly or even become even a super saiyian with all their powers if she wished it.(for example(dbz fan)).. i would do anything for her and i mean it... i may act strange or weird maybe even perverted at the wrong times but i try to do that as little as possible, but with her i love the way i feel and i wish i could act exactly right all the time when im around her and i want her to feel hapy all the time...and i dont want her to ever feel sadd even though this very message may make her cry i hope it will make her reallize at least a small portion of how much i feel for her... and for me too even say everything i feel i would need a lifetime and 10 more cause my feelings are always growing and im always finding new ways to say why i love her ... so really i guess i could never say everything on how i feel about her but so far im off to a good start.(i think anyway)(and i hope if she does cry when reading this that they are tears of joy).. i hope she realizes how special she really is... I do and i know theirs so much more i dont even know yet and i want to know everything about her and hope she feel the same for me too.,.. i cant help but say all this stuff to get her to realize how much i love her and how wonderful and great and buitiful and awsome and amazing and everything else she truly is.(thats a truthism(hands down)).. im gunna have to send her a message about this cause if i dont now i will wont be able to and i know i wont be able to say this all to her face cause i just stare at her at times and forget everything i have to say and just try to make her smile. and what a smile... oh i love her smiling and her eyes can give an angel wings... and even make the devil himeself pure... when she gives me this certain look im like puddy or something... i love her so much... i really hope she still does as much as i doo... she once said i was her perfect boy-friend i hope she still beleives that cause i know she is and always will be my PERFECT girlfriend... theirs nothing i wouldnt do for her thats within my power...i hope she realizes how special and wonderful she really is and how much i would love to let her know that.... it seems for the first time in many years that im able to say at least somewhat on how i feel about her and everything else and i dont want that to go... when im with her i feel like im a better person and would like to do whatever i can for her... she seems to think everything is always her fault but it isnt and she always wants to carry such a burrdon on her back and i wish she would let me be their and take some of that off her back and put it on mine... i just wish she would really know how wonderful and special she really is. and how much me and everyone else really cares and feels how great she is... and how much she truly truly makes me feel cause she should feel like that every second of her life...
God I LOVE that Girl so MUCH...

i love her so much... 4laugh redface redface redface redface