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Every time I see my own reflection. I can't help but smile.
And its never that "Oh, I'm finally proud of who I am smile", but that "I'm sorry you're who you are" smile.

Each time I see myself, I just see one thing;
A person who everyone can take advantage of.

Its so.. upsetting.

This is the second time a guy has decided to use me.

Don't get me wrong; I'm not having sex.
Apparently, though, I give out my trust and love too easily.

So, first Josh. The a*****e who promised me he'd always be my friend, but instead robbed me of my own worth.

Now Elliot, my older brother? Do I really deserve this?

I've done everything I could for Elliot.

I've given a shoulder to cry on.
Money when he needs it...
Hell, me and him are auditioning for Bye-Bye Birdie together this year.
And the whole reason why I'm actually doing such a retarded thing like auditioning for a musical is because he asked me to!
>.<

And now...
Its like he changing.
From such a protective and wonderful brother...
To just this p***k who hates my guts...


Ugh..


I hate the world.

If my life is going to keep going down in this way, then I'm going to just lock myself in a room, forget about my life, and just live with the internet.

Seriously.
At least then I won't have to face stuff like this.

Ugh.
I feel like such a goddamn whimp.



I should hate myself.

But I don't.

I should hate him.

But I don't.

I hate life.