The words slip out of my mouth and I can't let them stop.
Thank god no one pays attention. No one cares.
But at the same time.
That burns me completely.
How I truly feel about everything spills out of my mouth.
Things I never wanted to say because it would hurt people.
Things I always wanted to say because it would make me feel better.
For once,
I wish I would stop worrying.
I looked at my reflection, and I noticed I let myself cry for the first time in a while.
My reflection held no meaning anymore.
The girl in that mirror was nothing.
Nothing but a replacement for the person I used to be.
I hated this girl.
I wanted to punch the mirror. To see that girls face break in millions of pieces.
But I closed my eyes and took deep breaths.
This girl is me. .
And I cringed at that thought.
No matter how right the little voice in my head was.
The Jimminy Cricket in my mind.
I deeply wanted to deny it.
And for once in my life I wanted to feel right.
But it only made me feel more wrong.
I don't know what I want from life anymore.
I just want to run.
Far away from all of this.
From humanity.
From family.
From friends.
From the one I love.
Just to be alone.
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Better than anyone I've known.
Which includes the guys too.
Don't resent yourself for anything.
You have no reason to.
I know I don't understand.
But you're loosing your optimism.
My dear.
You need to stay strong.
Don't give in like most of you're friends.
You know you can do it too.
Love yourself.