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I feel so yecky yecky for some reason.

Today wasn't so bad. With only my bf showing up a bit late over a small misunderstanding to a friend's house, it wasn't all that bad...

But I still feel so yecky yecky. Yes. Yecky. It's my new word. Copywrited and such. Whatever.

So of course, this entry isn't up to par with my usual overwhelming angsty-ness or my ramblings so it's probably a grave disappointment. How ironic.

Still feel so yecky yecky.

Tomorrow's freshman band camp. I'm a section leader, which is yay for me but I mean, I'm going to be a Junior next year. I have to deal with the Rose Parade. It's awesome-beyond that really- to be invited as only one of 15 bands that can go. But is that really worth it all if the one person I want to see me march it and be by me isn't there? There wouldn't be much of a point in me working my heart out that much, except for the sake of everyone else who also put in that effort and my band director. But it kind of losses it's luster when you can't share five days like that with someone special...

(We'll be gone for five days leading up to the Rose Parade and though, going to Knott's Berry, Disneyland and Medieval Times.)

Feel so yecky yecky right now.

Maybe it's just that I'm getting overly bribed with a DS, Pokemon Diamond and a phone lately. Maybe it's just that I can't speak to my "twin" for five days. Maybe that's it. Or maybe it's just I never really get any private time with my bf, that might be doing it too...

Whatever the reason being, it has made this entry in and of itself a bit yecky.


I'm so yecky yecky, so yecky yecky...I'm so yecky yecky, so yecky yecky...