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[16:28] Whatsername672: dude dana and andrew are so cuute
[16:29] Whatsername672: and i was thrown to the ground
[16:29] Whatsername672: AGAIN
[16:29] Whatsername672: and im hurt. like my arms are pulled.
[16:29] Whatsername672: muscles.
[16:29] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah
[16:30] Whatsername672: auh yeahh.
[16:30] Whatsername672: dont worry.
[16:30] Whatsername672: dont ask if im okay
[16:30] Whatsername672: because i might die
[16:31] Whatsername672: but thats okay rachelle
[16:31] Whatsername672: DONTY ASK
[16:31] HAHAimhardcoreee: haley?
[16:31] HAHAimhardcoreee: :/
[16:31] Whatsername672: ew.
[16:31] Whatsername672: what
[16:31] HAHAimhardcoreee: nevermind.
[16:31] Whatsername672: lol im fine.
[16:31] Whatsername672: it just my arms hurt alot.
[16:31] Whatsername672: i mean a lot.
[16:31] Whatsername672: but its okay
[16:31] Whatsername672: and are you okay???
[16:32] HAHAimhardcoreee: i guess.
[16:32] HAHAimhardcoreee: i dont really care anymore.
[16:33] Whatsername672: about??....
[16:33] Whatsername672: and whenever people say they dont care
[16:33] Whatsername672: they care a lot..
[16:33] HAHAimhardcoreee: no, not really.
[16:33] HAHAimhardcoreee: because if the other person doesnt care, then why should i?
[16:33] HAHAimhardcoreee: friendships should be mutual.
[16:33] Whatsername672: are you talking about me
[16:33] HAHAimhardcoreee: no.
[16:33] Whatsername672: ????
[16:33] Whatsername672: okay good.
[16:33] Whatsername672: i was worried
[16:33] Whatsername672: cause i was gunna say i care!!!!!!!!!
[16:34] HAHAimhardcoreee: ok.
[16:34] HAHAimhardcoreee: you shouldn't waste your time with me, though.
[16:34] Whatsername672: what do you mean waste my time qwith you?
[16:34] HAHAimhardcoreee: i dont know. trying to care?
[16:34] Whatsername672: me trying to care about you??
[16:35] HAHAimhardcoreee: i don't know.
[16:35] Whatsername672: no i think you do.
[16:35] HAHAimhardcoreee: probably.
[16:35] Whatsername672: huh??
[16:35] HAHAimhardcoreee: ?
[16:36] Whatsername672: i care about you.
[16:36] Whatsername672: and i dont try to either.
[16:36] Whatsername672: its like.
[16:36] Whatsername672: natural.
[16:36] Whatsername672: god if something ever happened to you. i would die.
[16:36] HAHAimhardcoreee: you don't need to explain yourself.
[16:36] Whatsername672: well i am.
[16:37] Whatsername672: so you know.
[16:37] HAHAimhardcoreee: ok.
[16:37] Whatsername672: your hurting.
[16:37] Whatsername672: and i dont need to know what.
[16:37] HAHAimhardcoreee: not hruting. just disappointed.
[16:37] HAHAimhardcoreee: hurting*
[16:37] Whatsername672: in who
[16:37] HAHAimhardcoreee: *sigh*
[16:38] Whatsername672: shaneice.
[16:38] HAHAimhardcoreee: you know, i hate getting attached to people.
[16:38] HAHAimhardcoreee: no.
[16:38] Whatsername672: amy.
[16:38] HAHAimhardcoreee: no.
[16:38] Whatsername672: anyone i know
[16:38] HAHAimhardcoreee: yep.
[16:38] Whatsername672: dana.?
[16:38] Whatsername672: me?
[16:38] Whatsername672: cat?
[16:38] HAHAimhardcoreee: i dont even talk to cat.
[16:38] Whatsername672: dana?
[16:38] Whatsername672: or me
[16:38] HAHAimhardcoreee: i already said it's not you.
[16:39] Whatsername672: well idk
[16:39] Whatsername672: is it dana
[16:41] Whatsername672: ???
[16:41] HAHAimhardcoreee: it's really stupid of me.
[16:41] HAHAimhardcoreee: i don't want to say because what i'm feeling is probably immature to you.
[16:41] Whatsername672: no it isnt.
[16:41] Whatsername672: come on.
[16:41] Whatsername672: i dont judge.
[16:41] Whatsername672: im just here to be someone you can talk to .
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh.
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: fine.
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: i guess i'm the third wheel.
[16:42] Whatsername672: the third wheel?
[16:42] Whatsername672: with dana?>
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: with you and dana.
[16:42] Whatsername672: auh.
[16:42] Whatsername672: i see.
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: idon't know why i thought i was a part of you guys.
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: so stupid.
[16:42] Whatsername672: part of us?
[16:42] HAHAimhardcoreee: but thats okay.
[16:42] Whatsername672: no its not stupid.
[16:43] Whatsername672: i feel the third wheel with you and dana.
[16:43] Whatsername672: i mean like you guys have this bond and you guys talk.
[16:43] Whatsername672: and i always want that
[16:43] Whatsername672: cause ill talk to dana
[16:43] Whatsername672: and shes like oh did rachelle tell you this
[16:43] Whatsername672: and im like no
[16:43] Whatsername672: and idk i get jealous
[16:43] Whatsername672: and like
[16:44] HAHAimhardcoreee: she's actually got you higher on her myspace.
[16:44] HAHAimhardcoreee: WOWWW I ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT MYSAPCE
[16:44] HAHAimhardcoreee: :/
[16:44] Whatsername672: ha.
[16:44] Whatsername672: yeahh...
[16:44] HAHAimhardcoreee: i feel really vulnerable, just to let you know.
[16:44] Whatsername672: i know..
[16:44] Whatsername672: i understand exactly how you feel
[16:44] Whatsername672: like yesterday
[16:44] Whatsername672: andrew and dana.
[16:45] Whatsername672: i felt like a 3rd wheel till cat got there...
[16:45] Whatsername672: its like i felt very insecure cause andrew would like... be shitty to me and not both of us.
[16:45] Whatsername672: like we used to
[16:45] Whatsername672: and i dont wanna sound like a selfish b***h
[16:45] HAHAimhardcoreee: you don't actually.
[16:46] Whatsername672: but like i felt like.... outkasted yesterdayy
[16:46] Whatsername672: dana and andrew were together... and cat hardly talks
[16:46] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah.
[16:46] Whatsername672: so it was just me while andrew like beat me.
[16:46] HAHAimhardcoreee: what the hell?
[16:46] Whatsername672: where do i start
[16:46] Whatsername672: he poured water on me.
[16:46] HAHAimhardcoreee: ughhh that's so stupid.
[16:46] Whatsername672: threw a bottle at me.
[16:47] Whatsername672: threw balls at me.
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: he DOES go too far with his aggressiveness.
[16:47] Whatsername672: put me to the ground.
[16:47] Whatsername672: yeahh i know he does
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: ://
[16:47] Whatsername672: and i mean he didnt do s**t to dana
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: he's a sweethear, but still.
[16:47] Whatsername672: or even cat.
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah...
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: well, i guess he finds you more approachable.
[16:47] Whatsername672: like its just me.
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: he's not gonna hit his girl, and cat isn't even someone he can play with.
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: i guess that's how he shows his attention ha.
[16:47] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh.
[16:47] Whatsername672: idk but it made me feel.
[16:47] Whatsername672: like kinda shitty
[16:48] Whatsername672: you know.
[16:48] HAHAimhardcoreee: i felt shitty yesterday too. :/
[16:48] Whatsername672: like i dont wanna be the girl he can just do s**t to and me do anything.
[16:49] HAHAimhardcoreee: maybe he needs to be stood up to because he doesn't realize.
[16:49] Whatsername672: no i mean
[16:49] Whatsername672: like idk
[16:49] Whatsername672: i dont wanna lioke say
[16:49] Whatsername672: you cant tell anyone... like seriously.
[16:49] Whatsername672: like im kinda jealous of dana...
[16:49] Whatsername672: =//..
[16:49] HAHAimhardcoreee: how?
[16:50] HAHAimhardcoreee: i won't.
[16:50] Whatsername672: like shes soooo happy.
[16:50] Whatsername672: and like she has a great guy.
[16:50] Whatsername672: and i mean idk.
[16:50] Whatsername672: andrews different now thats hes with her
[16:50] HAHAimhardcoreee: ahhhhhh
[16:50] HAHAimhardcoreee: i totally get it.
[16:50] Whatsername672: yeahh...
[16:51] Whatsername672: like idk.
[16:51] Whatsername672: i know its probably not true
[16:51] Whatsername672: but she always makes it seem like she has it all.
[16:51] Whatsername672: i know she doesnt.
[16:51] Whatsername672: but you know...
[16:51] HAHAimhardcoreee: i get it.
[16:51] HAHAimhardcoreee: she's just reall expressive of her happiness.
[16:52] Whatsername672: i know she is..
[16:52] HAHAimhardcoreee: you know.
[16:52] HAHAimhardcoreee: i was on the phone with dana yesterday.
[16:52] Whatsername672: yeahh..?
[16:52] HAHAimhardcoreee: i was all. "when are we going to the mall?"
[16:52] HAHAimhardcoreee: nd dana says you and andrew couldn't come,
[16:52] HAHAimhardcoreee: and nobody told me.
[16:52] HAHAimhardcoreee: ...and then she says she's ALREADY hanging out with you three.
[16:53] HAHAimhardcoreee: that was just.
[16:53] Whatsername672: i was going to talk to you bout it
[16:53] HAHAimhardcoreee: what the hell.
[16:53] Whatsername672: but i had no cmoputer...
[16:53] Whatsername672: and im so sorry like i tried to call you yesterday around like... 11
[16:53] Whatsername672: and i asked dana to talk to you about it..
[16:53] HAHAimhardcoreee: it's alright.
[16:53] Whatsername672: but i was so pissed at her yesterday too.
[16:53] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh.
[16:53] Whatsername672: like around 11 i called her
[16:53] Whatsername672: and shes like well.. ill call you in 20 minutes. and im like alright
[16:54] Whatsername672: i sat by the fone 4 ******** 1 hour and a half
[16:54] HAHAimhardcoreee: and she doesn't call back?
[16:54] Whatsername672: and i didnt get a call.
[16:54] HAHAimhardcoreee: ha. happened to me.
[16:54] Whatsername672: and im like uhh
[16:54] Whatsername672: finally when i was so upset and my mom was all pissed. she called.
[16:54] Whatsername672: and shes like are we hanging out still.
[16:54] Whatsername672: and my moms like haley just ******** go
[16:54] Whatsername672: so i did
[16:54] Whatsername672: but i felt like that was a stabb you know..
[16:54] HAHAimhardcoreee: from your mom?
[16:55] Whatsername672: dana.
[16:55] Whatsername672: like she didnt call till like 2 and a half hours alter.
[16:55] Whatsername672: i think she called at 2
[16:55] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh.
[16:55] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah.
[16:55] HAHAimhardcoreee: does dana seem fickle to you?
[16:55] Whatsername672: fickle?
[16:55] Whatsername672: like.
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: like... i don't know look it up.
[16:56] Whatsername672: lmao OKAY
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: she's all,
[16:56] Whatsername672: cause im stuuupiiidddd
[16:56] Whatsername672: lmao
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: xD no.
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: she'll be all,
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: "you're on of my best friends,"
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: but she doesnt ACT like it
[16:56] Whatsername672: then the next day oyour not
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: something liek that ugh.
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: i don't want to seem like a sensitive ********,
[16:56] Whatsername672: uits okay
[16:56] Whatsername672: i mean rach look at me.
[16:56] HAHAimhardcoreee: but whenever you guys would leave me at gym, i got like.
[16:57] HAHAimhardcoreee: :/
[16:57] HAHAimhardcoreee: it was probably a joke, but.
[16:57] HAHAimhardcoreee: it was ugh.
[16:57] Whatsername672: yeahh i get it.
[16:57] HAHAimhardcoreee: why would you guys do that?
[16:57] HAHAimhardcoreee: you did it at the mall too.
[16:57] Whatsername672: like we thought it was a joke.
[16:58] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah, i understand.
[16:58] Whatsername672: and like we felt like you were more like with amy and lisa.
[16:58] Whatsername672: and dorian
[16:58] Whatsername672: and we didnt really know them.
[16:58] Whatsername672: well i didnt.
[16:58] Whatsername672: and like.
[16:58] Whatsername672: idk
[16:58] Whatsername672: andrew was with dana
[16:58] HAHAimhardcoreee: i was talking to all of you guys.
[16:58] HAHAimhardcoreee: in fact, i was talking to dana, but SHE didnt even talk to me at the TGI fridays table.
[16:58] Whatsername672: when??
[16:58] HAHAimhardcoreee: and when you left with dana, i didnt have a chance.
[16:58] HAHAimhardcoreee: at the mall.
[16:58] Whatsername672: oh i remember
[16:58] HAHAimhardcoreee: last week, at the table.
[16:59] HAHAimhardcoreee: so THAT pushed me away.
[16:59] Whatsername672: like.
[16:59] Whatsername672: we went to go get a drink
[16:59] Whatsername672: and then you guys were gone.
[16:59] Whatsername672: and i felt like uhhh.? at that
[16:59] Whatsername672: and then like andrew was talking to us and like,. idk
[16:59] HAHAimhardcoreee: the first time you left?
[16:59] Whatsername672: yeahh.. when it was just me n dana
[16:59] Whatsername672: and we got sodas
[17:00] HAHAimhardcoreee: you guys were gone for a while. we didn't even know you got a drink.
[17:00] HAHAimhardcoreee: it was more like "we're leaving now."
[17:00] Whatsername672: see the whole thing was was me and dana thought it was just going to be just me u and dana and andrew.
[17:00] Whatsername672: yeahh i know i remember saying it.
[17:00] Whatsername672: but idk about dana.
[17:00] Whatsername672: she was actign weird that day
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh :/
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: fickle.
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: that's what i call it.
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: kind of liek a form of distant.
[17:01] Whatsername672: ha i looked it up
[17:01] Whatsername672: yeahh
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: and you know, i thought about me inviting other people. i asked you guys if it was okay, but it doidn't feel right. i shouldn't have invited other people.
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: i'm sorry about that one.
[17:01] HAHAimhardcoreee: i won't do that again.
[17:01] Whatsername672: i understand.
[17:02] Whatsername672: and i wasnt that upset well i mean i kinda was.
[17:02] Whatsername672: but you know.
[17:02] Whatsername672: i understand.
[17:02] Whatsername672: and after we left you guys
[17:02] Whatsername672: and like.... we didnt see you..
[17:02] Whatsername672: i was so worried about your feelings
[17:02] Whatsername672: but i couldnt get on AIM... and like honestly when it was me and andrew i was the one who was saying call rachelle.
[17:02] Whatsername672: you think it s fine with her?
[17:02] Whatsername672: is she okay?
[17:02] Whatsername672: and danas like im not that worried....
[17:03] Whatsername672: and im like well i am
[17:03] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh.
[17:03] HAHAimhardcoreee: shows who your real friends are.
[17:03] HAHAimhardcoreee: what the hell...
[17:03] HAHAimhardcoreee: i don't know.
[17:03] Whatsername672: i mean
[17:03] Whatsername672: like seriously...
[17:03] HAHAimhardcoreee: i reall appreciate that, haley.
[17:03] Whatsername672: i might be andrew.
[17:03] Whatsername672: i know i was worried...
[17:03] Whatsername672: like.
[17:03] Whatsername672: i tried... after we left n we didnt find you
[17:04] Whatsername672: im like lets see if we can find them
[17:04] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah.
[17:04] HAHAimhardcoreee: heh.
[17:04] Whatsername672: yeah..
[17:04] Whatsername672: idk if thisi s important
[17:04] Whatsername672: but like.
[17:04] Whatsername672: the other day
[17:04] Whatsername672: i called her
[17:05] Whatsername672: and shes like lemme call you backk.
[17:05] Whatsername672: so she did
[17:05] Whatsername672: and while we were talking someone else called
[17:05] Whatsername672: and she totally was like lemme call you back
[17:05] Whatsername672: and then she did.
[17:05] Whatsername672: so then she called. and like we were only on the fone 4 like 5 minutes and b4 she called i was crying
[17:05] Whatsername672: and she didnt know
[17:05] Whatsername672: so i needed someone to talk to.
[17:06] Whatsername672: and then while we were talking... andrew calls
[17:06] Whatsername672: and shes like let me call you back. and im like well its too late 4 calls now. and that was that
[17:07] HAHAimhardcoreee: ahhhh ):
[17:08] Whatsername672: yeah.
[17:08] Whatsername672: i know.
[17:08] Whatsername672: but you know
[17:08] Whatsername672: whatever.
[17:09] Whatsername672: i felt like real crappy..
[17:09] HAHAimhardcoreee: i wish i was there.
[17:09] Whatsername672: cause like. i needed someone. and you know how that is
[17:09] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah.
[17:09] Whatsername672: when you need someone but no ones there
[17:09] HAHAimhardcoreee: definitely.
[17:10] Whatsername672: so.
[17:10] Whatsername672: yeah
[17:11] HAHAimhardcoreee: *sigh*
[17:11] Whatsername672: yeahh
[17:11] Whatsername672: im sorry your feeling like this..
[17:11] HAHAimhardcoreee: how am i feeling?
[17:12] Whatsername672: idk
[17:12] Whatsername672: like when the dana thing..
[17:12] Whatsername672: and like.
[17:12] Whatsername672: idk.
[17:12] HAHAimhardcoreee: haley, you're a good friend.
[17:12] HAHAimhardcoreee: really.
[17:12] HAHAimhardcoreee: i'm lucky to have you.
[17:12] Whatsername672: haha.. honestly.
[17:12] HAHAimhardcoreee: haaa
[17:12] HAHAimhardcoreee: yeah..
[17:12] Whatsername672: like no one has said tht to me
[17:12] Whatsername672: like ppl have
[17:12] Whatsername672: but not many have meant it
[17:13] HAHAimhardcoreee: i honestly mean it.
[17:13] Whatsername672: i knwo you do
[17:13] HAHAimhardcoreee: mhm.
[17:13] Whatsername672: yeahh..