Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759434 Chatterbox Sun Mar 22, 2009 7:50 am
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
in the kitchen, ima chemist.
;
you make me so hot.
call me back<3
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759434 Chatterbox Sun Mar 22, 2009 7:42 am
"lolz megan"
"Makigoto"
"SamiGORE"
xxxand we can get away with this tonight;xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
If I had a super power...
I'd want to be able to teleport.
Go anywhere in the world within seconds.
I'd be with you all the ******** time, I swear.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759434 Chatterbox Sun Mar 22, 2009 7:40 am
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
i wanna ******** your body.
make it feel amazing, like you did me.
just givin' back.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759434 Chatterbox Sun Mar 22, 2009 7:28 am
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
holy ******** turning you on makes me turned on.
and then your boy comes in and starts talking to you and you're all gulping, trying to set yourself straight again.
ahahaha ********' casanova s**t.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759434 Chatterbox Sat Mar 21, 2009 5:07 am
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
SO
I'M PROBABLY GONNA GET TO GO TO THE EMMURE SHOW=]
;
this month's ap poll asked about ********' illegal activity lmfao.
i filled out the multiple choice, but i'm sure as hell not telling them "what the government would find if they confiscated my phone & comp".
even i don't trust alt press that much, lmfaoo.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759434 Chatterbox Sat Mar 21, 2009 4:55 am
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
whatever.
know i dreamed for you.
;
in love and death we speak for weeks. so good its almost just too much to believe
it's your sweet slow smile tells me you always know exactly what it is i need.
we'll be safe in our home, hidden in here alone.
and the photos will show these moments were golden.
do you see me?
do you see how much of a social life i have, while still being a top student?
you're really the only one i try to impress.
and the only one i try not to talk about weed&alcohol around.
maybe it's cause you're a sort of hero for me,
or maybe because i just don't want to let you down.
you hold me so high.
;
********, 'dinner after payback' by fata.
fata has some of the most killer ********' breakdowns, i swear.
them, and catherine, august burns, dillinger... (:!
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:10 am
karmakarmakarma.
i'll take what i can get.
;
more people need to come for ********' psychology tutoring.
i guess nobody goes for tutoring in that subject?
but dude, i'd totally rock that s**t.
even more than the world history tutoring.
haaa, it'd be ********' fly(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:08 am
'parently everyone's going to the all shall perish show?
i still don't know if i can goo:c
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:06 am
you still don't understand what i mean by ******** not talking about tai.
like.. spite, what the hell? are you serious? i ought to slap you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:04 am
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
i'm goin' to warped tour with candice, shanice, and dorian(:
hahaha showing shanice how to get ********' wasteddd.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 1:59 am
thank you for calling me perfect,
and that you love me.
it means a lot to me, right now.
your timing couldn't be better.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Mon Mar 23, 2009 3:45 pm
xxαɴ∂xɪxsωεαʀxɪʾʟʟxкɴσωxʏσʋʀxғαϲεxɪɴxтʜεxϲʀσω∂x
does jealousy root itself from insecurities over yourself?
then maybe i'm not happy with some things about myself...
yeah, i forgot to share this with you.
but this is pride.
i don't think i could let go of that.
and that feeds into the insecurity cycle even more.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Mon Mar 23, 2009 8:36 am
i listened with my eyes.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Mon Mar 23, 2009 8:35 am
i don't want to deal with this.
keep me warm.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Mon Mar 23, 2009 8:34 am
i'd have you know a lot of things.
but they'll never find form of text on screen,
or sound from my lips.
you'll never know, forever.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:43 am
i feel really hurt.
really hurt, and really happy.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:48 am
we're growing apart.
i'd like to name four reasons:
1) at lunch, you don't talk nowhere near as much as you did before. you read magazines. you do homework. and that, is the only time we did get closer in the first place.
2) at lunch, david comes. sometimes you talk with everyone else, integrating him, so we're all in one conversation. or a smooth two. but more often than not, at least, recently, you have your own conversation with him.
3) when shanice and i fight, it makes me moody, and i don't like talking. this isn't something that reoccurs, but because it happened recently, it feeds into this issue, and coincides with everything else that feeds into it as well, accumulating.
4) when you talk, it's really deep. like, really deep. one of those ditzy, airy, luna lovegood kind of depths. and i'm nowhere near shallow personality, certainly, but i just.. don't get it with you. but you do. and that clashes, in a way that i won't understand, and in a way that puts me off.
& you could emphasize that these things are always double-faulted.
i miss how we were, when i was broken, and it was just you and me at lunch.
but hey, i love the crowd, too.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:39 am
can i get to know you?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:37 am
jhdgdlkg,
i'm sorry.
i cling onto your former perspective so dearly.
i want the crown.
..but are you really writing him some kind of recommendation..?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:34 am
"so out of context"
i'd love to,
i feel sick, i feel as if i'm going to puke up all my mistakes.
lol you wish ;/
i'm going to lay down, i can't stop crying.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:32 am
don't know who i'd choose. melvin or fagan.
they both think i'm phenomenal.
but fagan teaches writing better and is lenient,
and melvin teaches grammar&literature/poetry analyzation better.
oh, and she lets us do projects and presentations.
hm.):
i better enjoy the ap lit teacher.
it makes things so much smoother when you dig the person in charge.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:28 am
SO IT TURNS OUT THE NEXT PM MEETING IS ******** NEXT YEAR.
which means, there were only three/four meetings to train this year./:
wtfh?/:
whatever. it's my fault, because i couldn't make all the meetings. but seriously, four meetings? ONE in the second semester? no, that's bull.
oh well.
i won't be one 'til senior year, then.
;
i'm different now.
i'm stronger now.
i'm reposed, now.
but you wouldn't know that, would you?
i just wish i had pride with you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:23 am
glad you're having fun.
don't mean i care about how your life is going.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:17 am
nope, not a senior.
no, not a junior either.
********' reppin' class of 2011, hahaha(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759437 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 2:15 am
too bad fata broke up.
i wouldn't care much if dillinger escape plan did,
because i've seen them live already, so it's ohk.
mm, yum.
"if you were to ask me, i've seen heaven.
i've come across it a million times before.
i've felt it. tasted it.
the feeling's been melted and fused into my blood cells."
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 5:50 am
i think i know why.
because i've come so far.
three years, and i showed that it was real to them all.
i'm still holding on, and you're still the one for me.
whether it's meant to be, it doesn't matter. i have something beautiful and pure in my life. that's what really matters.
something that made it.
something that was a miracle.
something that fulfilled a dream, and something that millions can't and will never have.
and to have these feelings, and to have someone who could make you change your ways? someone who'd always have your eyes, your care? someone who lightens and lifts your heart. that's real. it feels right.
love doesn't have to be perfected when it's requited.
love is perfect when it lasts.
the blessing isn't to have you.
the blessing is that i have this love for you.
that i'm capable of this. this love you make me have for you, it's a gift for myself.
i mean, just.
seriously, i could die right now,
and i wouldn't be missing anything.
i wouldn't live to see all i want to see, and feel all i've got to feel,
but i had you.
the fact that i'm satisfied with that, it's just. i can't put it into words.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 5:43 am
i love reading back on these.
do you know that i'm reading these, right now?
and it's so.. ironic? joyful? joyful to know these wishes, these wishes, they came true. they all came true, and i found my place. my place, and my love.
i'm a little disappointed in the way it was conveyed, and how ignorant i was. maybe i didn't know what i was talking about. but maybe that's because, in love, you don't -know- what you're talking about. love doesn't make sense.
whatever it is, i'm glad to have these.
however trite it was written.
these came from my soul, and in the best way i could manage.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 5:21 am
you cheer me up biggrin
i hope we get closer.
and if we do, i hope i'm not disappointed with what i see, not to be pessimistic.
that's the thing.
i make a lot of friends.
i get close to a lot of friends.
but then three things can happen:
1. i get put off by him/her.
2. they get put off by me.
3. we click like a key to their lock.
i'm aiming for the latter(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 4:56 am
as was cole to his phoebe.
i commit this path.
i devote this love.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 3:17 am
talking to you today is nothing like yesterday.
and now i'm all sleep and couches.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 3:43 pm
i got the guts to read the first three pages of your posts.
if some of them that i think are about me, about me, then i feel pretty happy right now.
;
"Sometimes I really wonder if you're a whore.
You constantly make people horny.
And want to ******** people.
but maybe I'm still holding the grudge of when you cheated on me.
whatever.
you make no sense.
and its exactly why I don't ******** trust you."
only person my sexual posts have talked about are jess.
and that doesn't make me a whore, that makes me attached to her.
i do have feelings for her. couples act on those feelings. you'd understand that.
i really, really don't like ******** multiple people.
i don't get a please on turning tricks.
i'm still here.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:53 am
DONT DWELL ON THIS, RACHELLE.
DON'T DWELL ON IT.
YOU KEEP SLIPPING THROUGH
THE CRACKS.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:49 am
what you said, made me speechless.
but i'm never going to believe it.
ugh, i don't know what to believe.
******** you.
******** you.
you touched something sensitive.
something
is happening.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Tue Mar 24, 2009 7:48 am
never again.
never again.
never again.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 2:39 am
the day i posted i wanted to get close to you, you began to push away.
i hope it's just your boyfriend.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 2:33 am
teach me to not trouble myself with this.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 2:17 am
i feel better, now.
to whom wouldn't know it;
i miss you.
and i love you to death.
i know that, now, because you've made your way into my dreams at night.
i didn't think i cared this
much.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 2:08 am
i feel like shittt.
well, i feel shitty.
i feel pretty good, but really shitty about what happened.
kahgkladhglkhdg.
god.
it's okay, it's okay.
it's okay.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 7:52 am
it's a flaw that i'm prone to make irrational decisions.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 7:49 am
every generation blames the one before. and all of their frustrations come beating on your door.
you say you just dont see it, he says its perfect sense.
you just can't get agreement in this present tense.
we all talk a different language, talking in defense.
say it loud, say it clear.
you can listen as well as you hear.
it's too late when we die to admit we dont see eye to eye.
so we open up a quarrel between the present and the past.
we only sacrifice the future. it's the bitterness that lasts.
so don't yield to the fortunes you sometimes see as fate. it may have a new perspective on a different day
and if you dont give up and dont give in, you may just be okay.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 7:31 am
it made me really embarassed to find that i've been yelling.
but i can't ******** help it, because i'm deaf in one ear.
yet, you complain about it all the time. do you think i care after the tenth?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 6:17 am
Quote:
Cole: I'm not quite sure what's so hard to grasp. Love transcends every plane of existence. All you need to do is believe in it with every fiber of your being and just send it out to Leo.
Piper: What does that mean? I don't understand.
Cole: I could never get through to you. I could always sense when there was something wrong with Phoebe.
Piper: Well, clearly Leo is not sensing that something is horribly wrong with me.
Cole: That's because he doesn't know who you are, which means it's gonna take a bigger jolt from you to jog his memory.
Piper: You know, it's odd how invested you are in all of this, considering I'm the one who helped vanquish you.
Cole: Well, you know, bygones and all, but you're changing the subject.
Piper: Yes, I am, and this is not gonna go any further until you tell me what you're getting out of this.
Cole: Me? I don't know what you're talking about.
Piper: Come on, Cole. I know you just as well as you think you know me. So if you want me to trust you, then you need to come clean first.
Cole: I don't want Phoebe to give up on love.
Piper: What?
Cole: She hasn't been able to find love since me or at least hold onto it. And I know that's ... my fault.
Piper: Well, maybe you should have thought of that before you decided to become the source of all things evil.
Cole: Look, I already feel guilty enough, all right?
Piper: Then why aren't you talking to Phoebe about this instead of me?
Cole: Because you're my only hope. I'm cursed to live in eternity without love for what I've done, and I accept that. But I don't want Phoebe to be cursed, too. She needs love. She --she deserves it. But she's not going to keep looking for it unless you give her a reason to. Now, you and Leo are that reason.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 6:02 am
bamf'd.
;
you're still the one i run to. the one that i belong to.
you're the one i want for life.
you're still the one that i love, and the only one i dream of.
;
there was something you told me, once.
you were talking about stasia, and how she believed, even though frankie was never coming back to her, that frankie was the one for her.
and i can completely put myself in her shoes, and feel that, and understand completely.
because that's the way i feel for you.
maybe true love isn't meant to be fulfilled forever.
maybe that's not what everyone's supposed to get.
but it's alive. always alive. and that's what ultimately matters.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759439 Chatterbox Wed Mar 25, 2009 5:59 am
Quote:
October 21
I Stayed Up With Her All Night. : Part Eighteen
I did.
It was magic.
These past two days was perfection itself.
She slept over yesterday.
First she was just gonna come over, but then her time here was luckily prolonged.
Her mom is awesome.
And so is her daddy, but he didn't really have any involvement.
Anyway.
I was shaky at first, because I always feel like my parents scare my friends.
My mom being strangely chatty, and my dad a bit distant.
Well, I took her to the pond anyway.
I wanted to take her to see the sun set, like she did me, but the sun had already set before we got there, hah.
It wasn't much of a deal though.
We walked back to my house, and went to my room.
We spent a lot of time in my room.
Ohmygosh... it was, perfect.
I don't remember what song we were listening to, but it was a song I had really liked.
I took the picture down that was covering up the window, and you could see the sun setting just a tiny bit over the horizon.
She said it was pretty.
There was a soft blue light illuminating the room from the CD/DVD player we were using.
We were on my floor leaning, against my bed.
She was leaning on me, too.
I was holding her hand, and she kissed me on the cheek.
I swear, I was gonna cry right then and there.
But I didn't.
I totally love my bed now.
We must have made out a dozen times.
I wouldn't call it making out though... it was more beautiful than that.
Kissing her lips, her hand on my face, cuddling with her...
There were times, when we had just layed there.
Staring into each other's eyes.
I stayed up with her all night.
I couldn't have wanted anything else.
We watched The Village, ya know.
I got scared, hah.
Even when I had seen the movie already.
She kept on saying, it's okay, when I squealed.
She said it in that light, sweet voice.
And that really made me feel like it really was, okay.
There was a moment, when we were just laying there, and she told me she loved me.
And then she said that I was amazing.
These lines weren't the first time they had been said, but at that moment, I really believed her.
She loves me.
And I'm amazing.
I'm... amazing...
I couldn't have asked for anything else.
Honestly.
These two days... were magical. Perfection. Beautiful.
It was with her.
That's all I really wanted.
To be with her.
And it wasn't short. No, it wasn't.
We had spent two days together.
Two days.
I will forever remember these two days well spent.
With the beautiful girl I love.
She is, perfection itself.
On the second day, which is today, we went to her band gig.
Haha, which was at a bank.
But it was outside, and it was more... "celebrational" than I thought.
More people, food, and fun.
When she played her instrument, with Hayley, she looked so cute!
I don't know why.
But it's like she was into it. It was passionate.
Haha. She went to church with me.
It was amazing.
Awkward yet.
But still.
Aha...
I don't know what else to say.
I got to hold her.
To be close with her.
To cuddle with her. Kiss her lips. Kiss her neck. Hold her hand. Stare into her beautiful, crystal blue eyes.
I got to lay with her. I must;ve told her I loved her a thousand times. And her to me.
It was amazing.
I cuddled with her.
I kissed her.
It was everything I've always wanted.
Haha, I even learned how to french kiss.
YES!!!
Awesomemazing.
And, when her mom picked her up just an hour ago, the sun was setting.
I stepped out of my house, and there was a beautiful, rosy sun. Setting.
She looked back, slowly as she walked down my driveway, and said she loved me.
As the sun was setting.
And she smiled.
Oh God, she has the most beautiful smile.
The most PERFECT ending to a perfect day.
I loved it.
That's all I can say.
I got to hold her, kiss, her, and I loved it.
I loved it.
Perfection.
I love her.
Perfection.
Amy, you're perfect. You make me really happy. Without even trying.
October 22
And Then, : Part Nineteen
I came back to my room.
And time stopped.
It felt empty without her there.
Her pretty smile there.
I slept in my bed without her there.
It was empty.
I miss her being here.
And then I thought of every moment.
It all came rushing back.
Every moment with her there...
It was perfection.
i'm almost tearing up.
because all these things, i still feel.
and all the moments i described, they come back so clearly.
i still recall the days.
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
i wouldn't have minded tearing up, after school.
just not in front of you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:27 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
got the granny 3OH!3 tee, and two bandanas.
i luh my dress style(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:26 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
i couldn't feel more content(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:25 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
you want that analyzed?
i'll give you fries.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:23 am
HI,
OBJECTIVE TASTE IS AN OXYMORON,
DON'T BE AN ELITIST.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:20 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
i almost can't restrain the feeling.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:18 am
"Hi-No-Ko"
Gravity release me,
And don't ever hold me down.
Just think about this: only 9 days.
One week and two days.
That's not bad at all.
Then none of this will matter anymore.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:16 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
i will write of the shame.
i will preserve the a** of me.
there is no other way to prevent this from happening again.
i will learn the past for a different future, regardless of how much this stings to read.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759441 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:04 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
i don't want to tell you it's because you complain too much.
how would you like to hear the cause for all your failed relationships?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 4:02 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
s**t, son.
vox are ********' beast in this track.
"baby i'm yo' security."
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:59 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
sometimes, i feel hate for you.
or maybe it's disgust for myself, because it's my fault we're this way.
i don't care to analyze.
i just want you gone.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:53 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
honestly:
i got so happy to see your face, i wanted to kiss you.
my chest filled with the feathery feeling.
and then it fleeted. i got so scared.
i shouldn't have hugged you.
you shouldn't have come back.
you should still be
in the hospital.
because it was like i didn't have to carry the burden of regret through the obligation of our friendship.
and finally facing the truth that i feel that way, stings.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:46 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
'here we go?'
no man, i've been ready.
drinks
up.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:45 am
xxxxxxxxxxxxwe bottled and shelved all our regrets.xxxxxxxxxxxx
what! no.
/:
honestly, i'm empty on embarassment.
;
makes me real.
makes me human.
makes me high.
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maybe because of you,
or maybe because of everything else;
i now believe in miracles.
i now believe there are no coincidences.
i now believe i never "can't".
i see magic in my life,
i feel warmheartedness.
i feel whole.
the things i'm feeling are beautiful.
basically, life has boosted 100% in the past couple months.
and before then, it was great.
;
you and i.
we're only destined for greatness.
we'll never give in.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:38 am
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i hope you never find the words i wrote for you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:37 am
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tell me once again that you'll love me to the death.
and should I die, you swear that you will come for me.
as I fade away you reach out your hand.
and please, don't let me go.
and i mean this. and i mean this will all my heart. with so much passion, i mean this, that tears almost reach my eyelids.
this is not romance.
this is not friendship.
this is you and i.
this is everything i need us to be.
this is the silence.
this is the cold.
this is the glory of the days.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:35 am
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the words of a teenage complaint.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759444 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 3:33 am
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we were beautiful.
we were two cars heading the opposite directions on the same highway.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:07 am
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HI, I'M GOING TO MOVE OUT, AND WHEN I DO, I'LL GO TO THE ******** PLUSH VENUE ON UNIVERSITY BLVD IF I WANT TO(:
i'm so spiteful, lmfao.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 7:59 am
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i don't want to talk tonight.
i don't want to talk to you, ever.
disappear, plz.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 7:55 am
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he's annoying.
new seats plz.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 7:21 am
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wow.
you know how kids try to be unique?
you actually are.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 7:04 am
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i'm never still.
i only find the calm during my sleep.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 7:00 am
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LOL I REMEMBER WHEN I THOUGHT YOU WERE DATING ALLISON AND I WAS LIKE "OH s**t"
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 6:36 am
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grr, i didn't want her to see it.
god, i'm not like that!
i do not ******** cheat.
they're not even NEAR the same things anyway.
and i don't use them for CREDIT.
i use them for AID.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 6:20 am
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f** dis s**t. ; ;
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 5:19 am
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i'm sorry for the way i am.
i'm not sorry for the way i am.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759447 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 4:05 am
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THATS WHEN I ASK FOR A DUTCHIEEEEEEE
THEY GOTTA HAVE A DUTCHIEEEEEEEE
oiii(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 9:00 am
"EAT MORE TOFU"
you're admired.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 9:00 am
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i hate you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:50 am
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god, i feel like s**t over you.
i wish this never happened.
i hate everything, right now. :c
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:42 am
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i want to ******** scream at you.
--damn.
relax, rachelle.
so angsty.
;
i had nothing but salt, fat, and sugar today.
i don't like that.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:40 am
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i want to ******** scream at you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:30 am
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let's make this obvious.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:25 am
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okay.
i'm fine with an f on the next test.
let's be fine with this f.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:21 am
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think something positive, think something positive.
k, on the last day of school,
i will rejoice,
and scream to myself, "******** you mrs. hansen, i'm never taking your class again."
bahahaha. scream
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:19 am
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i don't know how to ******** do this.
why am i ******** doing it ******** wrong?
god, i'm so ******** frustrated, i wanna cry.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:13 am
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i swear to ******** god, none of the ******** other ******** classes do this.
classes should ******** follow the ******** curriculum.
what the ******** hell./:
i mean, fine. make kids LEARN ON THEIR OWN LOL B/C IT'S AN HONORS CLASS
i'm not even patronizing there.
but i'm not going to ******** agree when my friends are having a ******** ride because it's MY teacher that makes this s**t ******** hard.
god, i hate this class):
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:40 am
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"As the name suggests, this is where you bring it all together. Final Project is where you prove you’re prepared to take all the knowledge you’ve gained over the past nine months, and combine it with the drive, imagination, and love for music that brought you to Full Sail in the first place.
This final course is centered around using the combination of your learned skills and creative ideas to build a music business thesis. To do so, you'll be asked to design a complete working business model, with all the components necessary for the starting point of a business plan."
oh my god, i'm so scared.
safe or risk?
safe or risk?
oh my goddddd.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:19 am
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LOL SORRY DID YOU EXPECT ME TO PICK UP YOUR CALL
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:16 am
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including you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:03 am
http://mtag.files.wordpress.com/2009/03/new-ipod-shuffle.jpg
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can you say, oh my ******** g.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:51 am
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i'm not disappointed if i can't get into the orlando warped show.
because the lineup isn't like, absolutely killer, this year. unlike previous years.
i would be bummed not to see lights, though. 'cause she's canadian. idt she comes to the south often?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:43 am
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the editors of ap mag definitely think on opposite tastes as me.
i don't even read the five star reviews, i go for the ones and twos.
generally that works.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:31 am
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man, i'm so good. so damn good.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:20 am
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god, i hate you, and i'm never letting you in again.
it's over.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:11 am
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badass, i came home to this month's ap mag(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759448 Chatterbox Thu Mar 26, 2009 9:15 am
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guess i'm going to sleep miserable over you.
sleep ******** happy.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 5:57 am
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"I also can't imagine that a class that short can cover any topic in any kind of depth."
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 5:55 am
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"Is it perfect? No college is perfect. Get over that illusion. Is it tough? Yes, and it should be."
i'm not afraid of risking time, or effort. i've molded myself into a highly capable work machine. i'm ready for burning challenge.
my only concern is if the education is valuable.
of course i'm not going to get a&r RIGHT after college. i'm prepared to start from the bottom. i just need to know if this is the right choice to make, to get there. i'll put in the money, time, and effort, but i will not WASTE it. hell ******** no.
see, this is why i've got it between uf & fsu, because they're safe and acclaimed for. so is this school, but being young and innovative, it's gotten so much negative critique.
idfk, idfk.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 5:49 am
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one is the cost. which can be applied to any other univ. choice, anywhere.
two, is the legitimacy. accreditation, because it's not regionally certified. i'll ask about that. education value, because they "only teach you how to use technology." i'm definitely concerned about this. finally, job placement, because "most kids go back to college/live with their parents/don't get a job." sounds typical of college stories, too.
idfk. :c
besides, these are internet comments.
so./:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 5:17 am
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I AM LAUGHING BECAUSE I AM NERVOUS
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 5:04 am
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idk, i'm kinda nervous.
well, kinda shy, actually.
lmfaoo.
godd i dont want to call them/:
haha i've gotten three emails though, and four calls, and one voice mail message.
MYY GOODDD
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 8:33 pm
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i have a plan.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 10:56 am
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lmfao, o shiz.
there's not a lot of chicks there.
which means there's even less less lesbians, lmfaoo.
oh well, i still got the nightlife scene(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:49 am
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this is little-kid-at-a-candy-store phenomenon to such a greater degree.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:45 am
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oh my god im about to cry.
oh my ******** god.
i've just held a feeling of awe for the past three hours.
i'm not even done with this package.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Fri Mar 27, 2009 5:42 am
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OH MY GOD
THIS IS A LOT TO TAKE IN
LOOOL
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i'll always find ways to euphoria.
i'll always have the shovel that digs me out of darkness and depression.
because i'm rachelle, and i can.
i want you.
i want so many things.
i want things about myself.
i want things about things i don't have.
and i want you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:57 am
"hate-factory"
❝ they just howl all night long ❞
people don't NEED to be coddled.
they WANT to be coddled.
they want you to soften your blows,
pair a criticism with a positive.
well, sometimes, the blows need to be harsh.
and you're not going to like it.
they will eat away at you.
they will eat and eat and eat and eat away at you.
they will get under your skin.
only then will you see the NEED to change.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:54 am
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i need hugs.
your hugs.
but i'm pretty sure you don't want to hug me anymore.
having said that, shanice's hugs are a still brilliant second best.
but she's not here.
nobody's here, on the vacation weekend.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:52 am
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kiss me and make me feel whole again.
i just want to run to you.
where did my security go?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:47 am
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i don't believe i'm gorgeous.
which says two things. one, my self-esteem is falling. and two, that in itself conveys doubt about the statement, for i said "i don't believe" rather than "i'm not".
i want to fix this.
i miss loving the way i look.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:40 am
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there's this boy, whose swag is fly as shittt.
but he walks like a ********' turtle.
he wears it all wrong, and it's sad to see that happen to nice clothes.
hahaha, that sounded so elitist.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:33 am
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sorry, but uh.
who's my best friend here?
she is.
not you, lmfaoooo
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:30 am
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i hope you just ******** ask her? lololololol
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:07 am
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i'm tired of the words that pass your lips.
and i've lost interest, my dear friend.
see you at lunch tomorrow.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759450 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 7:05 am
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YOU WANNA KNOW
WHAT I REALLY
THINK ABOUT YOU?
YOU'RE BORING.
YOU'RE LAZY.
YOU'RE ODD.
YOUR 'DEPTH' DIGS A HOLE SO DEEP THAT NOBODY CAN FIND YOU.
AND YOU'RE SO ******** UNORIGINAL, IT'S DISTASTEFUL.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 9:49 am
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i want to grow at this.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 9:40 am
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i'm so ready for this.
i'm so ready for the challenge and the downfall, and taking the big ********' risks that'll take me to the top.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 9:10 am
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i can do that.
i can do that.
the first step is believing i can do that.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:54 am
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craig owens is an inspirational man.
i've never seen anyone so passionate with music.
i can relate to that so deeply.
Music Magazines? Go to post 2 Music Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:47 am
I'm currently subscribed to two years of Alternative Press, AMP Magazine, and Hails and Horns Magazine. Can anyone recommend me other mags of the like?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:15 am
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i'm currently subscribed to;
hails and horns.
amp.
alt press.
i've yet to send in cash for a skateboard mag.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:09 am
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i need a password to get in.
DAMN IT
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:08 am
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now, back to thinking about you.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:07 am
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i hate girls that make conversations complicated.
i really ******** do, lmfaoo
ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY MAKE HINTS AND EXPECT YOU TO KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THEY MEAN
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759468 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 8:02 am
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OH MY GOD I AM DYING OF LAUGHTER
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:20 am
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i don't mind if i don't wake up tomorrow.
and,
i hate sitting in church so much.
that's what it is. it's not mass. it's not connection with jesus, god, and faith.
it's being surrounded by babies at eight a.m. in the morning, with alternating positions of sitting, kneeling, and shaking hands with fake smiles.
and it's moments of silence that i try to fill with your ugly ******** face, and stones.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:16 am
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you won't care.
and i'm just fine with that.
i'm not fine with that.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:15 am
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i hate you and what we've become.
you can take back these memories i clung onto for so ******** long.
******** the magic.
******** the believing.
******** the warm ideology.
******** being the fool.
you gave me this,
and i'm shoving it all back to you.
because i don't want ******** anything about you.
just get the ******** out of this place and die.
get out of my school.
get out of my town.
i'm tired of your face and your running to me.
there's nothing i want that i can really have.
so just get the ******** away.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:12 am
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goodbye.
i'm glad the reinsulation didn't last long.
but i'm glad for the present.
and all the fake things i tried to see in you.
i just want to hate right now.
i just want to stop caring, like you've stopped caring.
i hate everything about you.
******** this. ******** everything.
i just want to work and become a cold machine of success.
bred in white ties and solid suits, but no lover to hold me.
hey, i'm used to this game.
i fit perfectly to the role.
so i'll take these risks, and i'll slide right by failure over and over.
because now i know who and what to prioritize.
sucess over love and life.
because the latter never gave me anything to hold onto.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:09 am
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i can't rely on you anymore.
and i'm hurt that you can't care for just a little bit.
these thoughts, they're pulling at me. and i feel weak. and i can't find the solidity of ground.
i'm thinking about you.
i hate thinking about it.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 9:55 am
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/grunt.
i'm good.
i'm embarrassed.
i have nothing.
i have no pride.
i give in, and i give up.
but that's not really what this is, because you already called it off.
i'm good.
i'm shaking.
i'm good.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 10:51 pm
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god, i don't care much for holding hands.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 10:47 pm
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i got my hold on you, yeah.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 10:01 am
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baby, you thought you were ready for this.
get ready to think again, because everything you think you know, you don't.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759469 Chatterbox Sat Mar 28, 2009 9:51 am
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"Before I get into how one goes about getting a job in with a record company, I think it's important that you do a bit of soul-searching. Are you prepared to work in a very unstable industry? Are you okay with the fact that you'll never get rich working for a label? Are you cool knowing that unless you are a forward thinking, hard working, entrepreneurial minded person you will most likely fail? Yes? Ok - let's get to it."
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 11:15 pm
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hahaha.
i love how i've summoned the b***h to ignore your damn calls and never return them.
you're the first to lose my absolute respect.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:35 am
"Vitamin Enhanced"
http://i36.tinypic.com/wcgx2a.jpg
Unless you can part my ribs like the sea && make stone beat...
You know, if I was male, I bet I'd get like over nine thousand DLS points. ROFL.
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My 11:11 wish has been the same for yearslike three weeks straight.
then there's no hope for me...
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Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:34 am
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i read th records has only one permanent member, now.
and equal vision is looking for a pr guy.
can i hear a, "would you like to fill out an application?"?
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:30 am
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when my eyelids part tomorrow morning, and i feel consciousness seep back into my brain like an old friend,
i will feel surprise at my living.
and i will feel a sinking of heart, because i will have dreamed of the past, only to wake to a saturated, cold present.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:28 am
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i half can't believe myself right now.
i almost want to go to my defensive insticts.
well, i'm tired of a ******** cover up.
how many times can i copy and paste "i hate you."?
or rather, "i hate myself."
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:26 am
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i'm ugly, inside and out.
hahahahahahahha.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:24 am
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i gained everything in my life, and lost it in the end.
i'm fine with this, because i get the prize, at some point.
this is how my life will be.
a construction of euphoria and satisfaction in one person or persons, and watching myself ******** it all up.
i wouldn't want to be with myself, either.
this is me, letting myself go.
i've been strong for a while now, and i just want to give up.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759472 Chatterbox Sun Mar 29, 2009 10:21 am
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i hate myself.
good job, i want to blame you.
nothing matters anymore.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:48 am
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MICHELLE IS LEAVING STRAYLIGHT RUN!!1
that is win.
because, i always hated the ******** songs she produced.
ahahahaha badassssssss
now, she can persue her own 100% indie-folk career.
'cause i hated those elements in sr.
but maybe john is tending toward that sound too. :c
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:46 am
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you're beautiful.
i could see us together,
but last i checked, you played me.
Is There Appeal In Typing Like This.
lolololololollcopter.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:41 am
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EDDIE MAY BE FUNNY
but he's such a d**k.
a stupid little stereotypical boy.
and i find that way too often.
it's people like these that make me want to stereotype the gender.
but then i realize, i know better than that.
fundamental attribution error, plz.
where's adam when i want him.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:38 am
"Machinae Supremacy"
I think I'll get that fleur with the wings I designed, and of course, the cursive beneath it, as a tattoo across my shoulders. Or maybe along the front of my chest, near my collarbone?
I know that we'll be together forever. So it's not even a risk.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:36 am
"vintageRELEASE"
this isn't a fairytale.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:35 am
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LOL SHE'LL NEVER BELIEVE HOW MUCH I'VE MISSED HEERRRRRRRRRAFL;ADG;
oh, face in my dreams
;
the univ. has e-mailed me four times, called six, and mailed me their catalog.
lololol.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:30 am
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god, i miss herrrrrrrrrrrrrr
i don't see her after fifth as much as i normally do. :s
;
lol so,
i really think i'm starting to like candice again.
but i caaant
i'm not ready to open my heart again.
b/c i'm pretty sure she sees me that way too.
and. :c
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:14 am
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god, the report cards need to come the ******** out!
two weighteds are over 100.
i wanna see my straight ********' a's.
read 'em and weep.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Mon Mar 30, 2009 4:20 pm
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i had so much contempt for you lmfaoo
but i'm containing it, now.
because we all know it's RACHELLE and not YOU
&im not patronizing.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759475 Chatterbox Mon Mar 30, 2009 2:19 am
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i just get all heart-thumpin' every time i read it(:!
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:00 am
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b/c i'm not going to complain to raymond again;
1) ytf are we SEPARATING the world history ap students during the exam? that's so ********' gay. yet i really don't have any reason for this other than "i want to sit with my friends." still, lame. our school is poor. :c
2) i wish we took the curriculum faster. because i seriously think we're not going to have enough review time. we have one month, and seven chapters. i'm just used to all my other ap classes; we had 2 weeks+ to review. but we don't have that. and world history is the HARDEST to recall/:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:43 am
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i wonder what's the most shocking thing ap psych has taught me.
prob. the boner thing.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:31 am
"dysfunctional uterus"
"gracious faust"
http://dragcave.net/image/5EYA.gif
thank you for your pity
you are too kind
i'm boycotting the poll.
i hate when they're so negative.
crshxxxmyspcxxxfcbkxxxsnp
though i find the current one to have some nostalgia rather than negativity.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:24 am
"yourz for the taking"
anything i want?
you. plain and simple.
&that other thing.
but mostly that.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:22 am
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i do believe i've found myself again.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:10 am
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humans are superficial.
tru fax.
lololol
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:05 am
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o.
'parently mathematics is part of liberal arts?
/face of confused.
that doesn't make sense.
well, that's what the dictionary is saying.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:56 am
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i get totally into this.
it definitely engages myself and my skills.
there's nothing else like it.
i adore liberal arts.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:55 am
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you've seen this is my life and passion.
and you're the only one that's ever understood that.
maybe because i open up to you most.
i like that.
shanice is my bes fran(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759479 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:50 am
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WAIT
BUT THEN WHO'S GOING TO DO THE BACKUP VOCALS FOR THEIR SELF-TITLED CD.
?
gonk
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Wed Apr 01, 2009 5:02 am
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HI,
I'M BITTER,
AND I MIGHT ATTACK YOU TONIGHT.
HI.
I'M JEALOUS.
/:!
stop telling me how you have her and i don't.
stop stop stop stop stop stop.
please ******** stop.
it's a ******** sting every time.
i mute the ******** phone when you talk about her.
i really ******** do.
dlgjldsgsdg.
but of course, you're just going to be insensitive about this. because you don't care how i feel, you just want to say what's going on in YOUR life.
i'm not saying it's wrong.
it's just wrong to rub it in my face.
i always told you have dorian was the one person i was most sensitive to.
and you know how i've felt about me and her lately.
and you go and do that?/:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 4:19 pm
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guess who i dream about the day she texts me for the first time yesterday.
GUESS ********' WHO
i hate my attatchment
for you.
and what was the situation?
same as always.
you come back to me.
hahahahahha
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 7:42 am
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yes, &i mean you;
I AM SO AEESTHETICC
ask me how i do it man.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 7:34 am
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i thought your words meant something
in the same way that i felt a love from your gestures.
and now, i have nothing but contempt to analyze.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 7:17 am
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i like the fly girls in they booty jeans
they in my club always grindin' me
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 7:04 am
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:c
i hate how likeable i remember you being.
and how likeable you're being now.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:55 am
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LOL NO
I AM
not
letting this happen between us.
especially since i emotionally shut you out this weekend~
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:46 am
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rofllllcopterr.
DO YOU THINK I GIVE A DAMN
THINK AGAINNNNN
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:11 am
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allen will officially be mentally referred to as dead kennedys boy.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759480 Chatterbox Tue Mar 31, 2009 6:07 am
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on top of ap psych.
hahaha i'm so lucky that was an easy class. & the fact that our reviewing periods don't overlap.
b/c in senior year, this multi-ap class shiz is gon' to kick my ********' a**.
BAH, I FEAR.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759484 Chatterbox Thu Apr 02, 2009 4:57 am
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you make so much.
and being around you gives me this incredible happiness.
i often ask myself if i'm in love with you.
but i don't think i am.
i have this soft spot.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759484 Chatterbox Thu Apr 02, 2009 4:54 am
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"she said she misses you.
she said she wants to try again."
i almost didn't want to hear those words.
she is to me as joy is to you.
i'm glad i got you to understand, today.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759484 Chatterbox Thu Apr 02, 2009 4:48 am
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social ********' butterfly(:
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759484 Chatterbox Wed Apr 01, 2009 3:42 pm
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i'm going to tell you that he doesn't deserve attention.
and then i'm going to tell you why.
why, because he's a disgusting boy. i've known him, and he's shallow, ignorant, and a jerk.
and then i'm going to end the confrontation with what i began with.
but if you object, there's nothing else i'm going to do. i'm not going to force you to change friends.
still, i hate the guy.
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759484 Chatterbox Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:35 am
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ALLISON IS SO HOT
REP THAT s**t!!
Dirty Little Secrets [04/02/09] Go to post 759484 Chatterbox Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:32 am
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i miss her, i miss her, i miss her.
and i've never been able to have her.
and it's always been this way.
and i'm tired of the coming and going.
and i'm tired of having her in my life.
i miss her.
i dream of her.
i miss her...
why do i have a soft spot for you?!
wtf this emoticon? Go to post 15 General Discussion Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:23 am
"Tea Party Massacres"
To me it looks like a bullet about to hit a wall.
dude, seriously.
wtf this emoticon? Go to post 15 General Discussion Wed Apr 01, 2009 6:15 am
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