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I feel like such a fool. I said I'd always be there for them and then I leave. I thought it would help this pain in my heart but it only made it worse. Aaron has been pushed away by the medicine I'm taking so I'm more alone now than I was when he was with me.

I'm such a fool


such a selfish childish fool


forgive me.....my friends.....I tried to change but in the end I did the exact opposite.....forgive me for abandoning you.....for not keeping my promise....I don't...I don't....deserve friends like you. You were always there when I fell and I feel like I just let you fall.....


I'm sorry....I'm sorry for everything I did to you.... for all the things I didn't do for you....and sorry for being who I am....


I'm a tool, a puppet, use me how you see fit and I'll always come through. No matter the situation....please believe my promise to you....I understand if you don't....I'm not human.....I don't know what I am anymore


It always rains when someone I know dies....it won't the day I die....I don't know myself.....