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Well my friends I last this batol. I dont hav Finashol-Ad but thats not it I had to make a potishin and that wont help me at oll. Im sad so sad and I need help. I was to preaud of my self and becaos of that I playd with my classis and groad's. Im shucs a full I did not know of my grads untill the simestor was over. Now I'm not so shorw if im coming bake to I.V.C. To make more wors this parblam my mother call me if everthing went well I told her everthing. She went out and cost me out yeld at me but thats not all I was kict out of my homes and this all hapind on the ponew. I spend the nieth at my friend houes I told hi everthing too. He was not mad at me well not that moches. That it was not fer for me to go all thur all that.


Well I'll at mitthat slak out but I went thur and it was not enaf. I hat my self and this is more sad my girl Angila thinks that it was her falt but it was not hers it was mine. Well now im asking for help and I need it a lat. And she will help me but I dont have Finashol-Ad so how am I going to pay for the books I dont know. I ges people wer raet of me I have a limit for my one self. I hat wen ther raet of me I ges I wont get to my gol of being a Gane desinor and make the best games. I'm sad, i'm mad i'm crying i'm haert borkin. I dont know what to do now I.....I do need the help I do.

I want to be the best but its not enaf its ever enaf for me. Is it so hard to be how I want to be. I want be a game desainer becaos the game that I playd over the year's thay made be happy. Senc I gur up with out a father and had a step father in sted. He love's hi dator Lusero then enething els. And well I have a mother but she dosint belif me or torust me to.But im her ices in life with out me she wod not do her work. She dos so meny things for me and I did killd my self and omost die but she sine the not on the taybol. I know I know I was a caword but what can I do. I relit dont have that soport as I usto wen I was a kid.

But the neo I bilam is my real father he usto hit my mather befor I was bornw. I was bornw 1 monthe erliy and I fell from the balkiny of the aportmint and land did on my hed too. So I lost the a bilidy of reading and I was the best studint in all of my school's. Now I have to be in speshal-ed classis becaos of that.

And well I dont know what to do now the saund of suasoed sauns so suet but my love to Angila is more bigor. And yet the saund of killing me is more and more betor. Im in love so that will save me raet.....raet oh Angila I do need help but if im like this then how can I give you a houes or a chayold or be a family. Ges you need someneo more betor then me >.<
But you know what I wont give up I wont give It up.

I wont give up on aro love I'll do my best but I need help. I need help you'r help and thos that are reading this to I know I dont know you but if you can give me your saport i'll fell more betor senc my familt basint give me it but my friends and you Angila give it to me ill be ok.
But pless your that are reading this just send me a comint in Gaia or My Space i'll know that your giving the hops and the derim the I dont want to loss.

My My Space is chuyaka44@yahoo.com in Gaia im Chuy May Cry.
So pless send me something ok. Well so long Angila friends And thos I dont know yet. Wish me loke. crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying