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One more year gos one more year coms. I cry and cry hoping to live more and not die on thos that love me. Yes I have a weak haert and yet I do things I'm not sopost to do. But I do them. Not becouse I want to die no i just I do them becouse I love someone and I'll do thes things untill I die. I love my girl and I cant wayt to see her agen and to be with her too. I want to kiss her all day and not let go. Well all I want is to be with my girl and tell her my self that I love her and I miss her too. But I'm aforayd to die. Why I'm the blacb sheep in the family so I do get a lot of axsidinds. But the forst one was way to mochs even I cant bely it. I die for 7 hawores and I cam bake I dont know why but i gess death dosint want me yet or god. You see I want A normol boy but My step-father stad me with a naefe on the chest and cut my vanys 6 of them. Now I dont have the proablom in the het or to run. But I have to ecsorsaeys more so I wont die more soonore. Well thats what my speshalist sead to me and I have to be more cerfol too. One bad move and I can die. But I cont cerr if I die I want my love to have all the things she needs and the best too. I dont cerr what hapins to me as long as she has what she needs I'll be ok. I love Angela and I'll do everything I can to see her happy I dont want to see her sad or crying. I lovee her I'll do eneything for her eneything. And if I have to die for doing this then so be it I'll make her happy.

I was rejetid by so meny grils becouse I was fat, R.S.P, no money, no good looks, and not even a car. I lost hop o love but then I met Angela did not say a word to her un till I did thing I'm not so happy for and now I have one year with her. I'm happy very happy why well someone loves me foe me and I love her for her too. I cant wish for something more nop I dont have to but I do wish for something just something more.

I wish to live longre, I wish to be more stoanger, I wih I was more helfeor, I wish my haert can live more longer just a bit more I want to be with my love I want to be with her I want to die with her I wish oh I wish to have a family with her. I just want to be with her. Wen corismos cam were was i at home alon and her with her mother and little sister jinx. Tomore her B-Day 29 she going to be 21 and were a'm I going to be here at the house and her. Well shes going to be in her room all day doing nothing. For new yaers I'll be at home doing nothing and her sad and lonly in the house. But this is all my faolt why I sead something bad on the phone and becouse of that her mother wont let me see her take to her or even be with her. Yes One more year One more sadnees in my haert to have I want to be with her but I blamy my self for what I sead that night . Now I'm sad crying yes even men can cry I dont know why that say thay dont but we do cry. But I wish I wish to be with her, to love her, to be happy, to kiss her, and to say Angela will you be my woaef and take my hand in marigs. But i ges I wont be ablod to say it.

I wish I can live more for you why dos my haert cry why do i have to be a way from your love why do people hat what we have why. I dont undorstand it but I knoe I want to die but your the resin I want to live and to be with you. I dont want to die I dont I wish I can give you all the things you nees to be happy my love. I wish you can hera me my haert caling you I wish you can feol my love for you. I wish for your happyness I wish I can be there with you. I cey and I'm sad but yet I'm happy just a bit to make my day. Why do I have this smoll happyness in me its becouse of you my love you. Senec your all I want your all I need to live. As long as I have your love I'm happy to say i love you and soon I'll see you. I see you agen just to be with you my love just to be with you.

I wish to be with you and to hold your had and say I love you and thank you for loveing me bake my love. My angel my, baby girl, my pomkin, my love, my everything. Thank you for making me happy with your love thank you.
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