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i have seen her cry but nt like this, i have seen her upset but not like this,
i pushed my luck too far. im at the end of the last fine silver line. i have hurt her that i feel like i will die. she say's she forgives me but i have a feeling that its just empty. i know she loves me but i dont diserve it at all. i knew she hated what i did and i still went on with it. she is the love of my life but i believe that she would be better off with someone better then me someone who wont hurt her someone who would give her everything she wants everything she need not a failer like me. i know she loves me and i love her, but do i diserve her. when i look at her she unhappy and depressed is it me, yes its always been and will i just wish she was happy for once and its not with me if she stays can i fix it or will i have m heart fall apart in my hands. people say shes controlling, that what i did was harmless but when i look at the people who say that i see no future no lives ahead of them i see that i can be better then them and i know shes just protecting me but if i am making her feel this way y is she with me and not with someone who will make her happy someone who will give her the rich futuer the big house and the 3 kid and let her be a stay at home mom writting the her book i know it wont be me and i know i will do my best to fix it, i just wish that i am the one who put a smile on her face and not the sarow in her beautifull disater heart



mollie i love u and i want u to under stand that i am writting this to let u know whats happening to me, and i want u to promis that if i do put sarow in u beautifull heart that u will find someone who will put the smile back in ur beautifull shinning face