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I never seen to remember to do this. Then again I've been so busy this summer I've barely touched my computer. I don't really feel like sleeping yet but it's only 11:09.. Im watching my new baby lizard sleep. Chaos is soooo cute! I can't wait till it grows up (I dont know if its a boy or a girl yet) I use to have 2 (theyre chinese water dragons) Michael and I got them. We each named one. I named mine chaos and Michael named his Shade. Sadly, Shade died after we had only had him for 2 weeks. It was also the day before Michael had to fly home.

This summer has been soo freakishly busy and Yesturday was the first day I had to myself at home. And I start school again in 2 weeks!

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(wow the second time today doing an entry and the one before was from April!)

Michael and I talked seriously today about living together and how much we love each other and how the distance is killing us. So we were going through our options, of waiting or not and then I said: "Well, what if you put off your college for a year and move into my house. You can get a job during the day and I can get one after school and we can save up money. Then when I graduate we can move up to Seattle." He actually said it was a really good idea!!! We just have to get it approved. I don't want to have to let him go again when he has to leave after this next trip. But if we can do this he might move here in September. THen it wouldnt be so hard it would only be about a month to a month and a half that I could wait that long.

Its so ******** simple!!! We also need to find out if he would still be accepted to the school if he puts it off for a year.

This whole thing started when I was talking about my friend sean having a pa (prince albert) and I said that I wanted to see it. It went into this spiel on how he was jealous and nervous and it touched on the past issues of trust and what not.. Then the distnace.. how our ******** ups wouldnt have happened if the distance wasnt there.. So we just said "Okay, lets figure something out."

So... It all started with Sean's p***s!

My Boyfriend: I want a baby o.O
Me: O.O.. really?
My Boyfriend:kinda...
Me: right now?
My Boyfriend:yesh...

Wow.. I dont know what to think. I kind of want one but its too soon.

I found out friday that Im not pregnant.. I dont know why im posting this in my journal but I am! Maybe I just need to write it all out... Anyway... Not many people knew that there was a possibility.. I think Michael is a lot more happy than I am.. Which is to be expected since hes a guy! Im having a lot of mixed emotions about it. Im happy because I wont have a kid yet and I can go farther with school and finish my senior year and what not.. But Im sad.. because im not gonna be a mom yet.. Ive really wanted to and wanted it recently for some reason But I guess I just have to wait.. Theres always the future right? sad

Im going to see michael in 23 hours and 43 minutes!!! I cant sleep im soo excited!!! So im going on about it in my journal! Hey at least its happy! xd TOMMORROW NIGHT TOMMORROW NIGHT!!!

A WEEK LEFT UNTIL I GET TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND!!! I am going to wear my "I didn't do it" shirt just because I bought him the same one and someone else gave this one to me.. I also have matching shorts! Haha we are gonna be wearing the same shirt! kick a**!!! xd OMG OMG OMG I am SOOO ******** excited!!! *cries from happiness* I get to kiss him and hold him and cuddle him and ******** him!!! YAY!!! heart Haha and my friends don't get a chance to meet him.. I only get 2 days.. but oh well at least I get to see him!!!

PS: TOMMORROW IS D SCHEDULE!!! yay.. Though I don't think Im gonna go to target.. I dont wanna spend a lotta money. I think Im just gonna get coffee at starbucks in safeway and buy a couple doughnuts with amanda and then just walk back to school by myself. Wee...

It has recently come to my attention that I really only use this journal for random rants.. Mostly when I'm pissed off.. Oh well.. I'm NOT suicidal i SWEAR!!! Anyway... Todays rant:

MY MOM IS A ******** b***h!!!!!!!!!
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*lets out a deep sigh* Oh wow that feels SOO much better!!! Anyway.. Wanna know why she's a b***h? Because my bf called me tonight to talk for only like 15 mins and i had been talking about 5 when my moms sister called and i couldnt get my aunt to call later so i asked my mom *nicely* (really i did!!!) if she could make it quick and she went off on me about how I had been on it all day and just basically NO!!! U STUPID TEENAGE WHORE!!! GET A LIFE!!! (Just.. Not exactly in those SAME words.. oh well..) So i got all pissed and shed tears and what not.. *sigh* and then i finally got him on the phone again.. and he said he would stay up another 15 minutes just cus he loves me.. heart And now I'm ranting on my gaia journal because hardly anyone reads it but me and Its a good way to let off steam without going completely Kujo on my mothers face!!!

I LOVE YOU MICHAEL!!! heart

Meh.. I was in my last final of the day and it was great because we dont have homework.. or at least i thought. My teacher assigned a freakin big poster due on monday for a book report.. GAHHH ur not spose to do that!!! GAH *SCREAMS AND CRIES AND YELLS* and then,, since it was a half day I went to the mall and had lunch with my friends.. and laughed at security who watched us like hawks cus we had our backpacks... and i caught the bus from there instead of the school... (the bus goes by my school anyway..) and I go into the next town and get off at my normal stop at the normal time from the normal bus that I take there,, and the next bus.. ISNT THERE.. luckily i had my moms phone so i could tell the time and it said i was there at 3:12.. so i called my mom and she told me to wait for 10 mins and i did... no RT.. So i call her back and she calls the buses.. (its a dial a lift thing) and they said I wasnt there at 3:15.. WHICH IS A ******** LIE CUS I WAS,,, their clocks were just to fast.. so GRRR anyway.. I got stranded there for awhile and yeah it totally sucked... my mom had to come get me and im at her work right now for about another 10 minutes so im just bitching about peoples ******** mistakes...

My boyfriend is coming in 2 weeks!!! *dances* sex for angie!!! and cuddling and kissing and OMG OMG OMG MY BF IS GONNA BE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now if only I can convince my mom to let him stay in my room ninja muahaah or he can just sneak in at night.. and also i get to skip 3 days of school!!! WOO ******** HOO!!! *dances more and runs ariund in crazy circles* HOLY ******** s**t THIS CANT BE COMING TRUE!!!