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angel of death come down into the world
heart Angel of death come down into the world, i offer you this worthless life, for i am a man who can not love, i am a man who loves the pain. come down and release me from my suffering. take all my pain and sorrow and release me from this agony, i offer you my life, i am a man not worthy of the gift of life, depressed day after day, bored shitless in this hellhole i call my life, Life?...what's the meaning of it if we eventually die? Life? a cursed thing i have to live with, nothing but pain and suffering, is this it? the GREAT MIRACLE? i see no miracle here but a curse, yes a curse which i deal with every time i breathe, i've gone suicidal, only to back out like a b***h? why do i always talk about death and yet continue living? why am i so afraid to die? it's what i want is it not? can be due to the fright of not knowing what's after?...do i live on in some weird odd way?...heaven/hell? i don't care which i go to as long as i can be assured i will be there in tact, burning in hell knowing i'm still me, suffering for all eternity, no difference, i live through the same s**t each and passing day. when we are young we are only innocent yet to realize the hardships of life, why can't i go back to being young, when i was carefree and didn't have a care in the world, yes i was once happy, but this wretched world changed me, the people within it corrupt, lies, deception, murder, is all i see, "SHOW ME TRUE HAPPINESS", who in this damn world has it...and for those of you who have ******** YOU!!! yes ******** YOU!!!, i envy you, Bcuz you have that which i've longed for, ever1 claims to be different when we're exactly the same, we are all human, we all have something that makes us human, we all have something in common, i have no worth, what is but 1 life? what does it matter to you...the reader, yes "YOU" the one currently reading this...why does it matter to you wether i live or die? you don't knoe me, you don't knoe what i've been through, you have no right to say anything? what? care to comment? go ahead, can't wait to see your respond, i am nothing but bitter, i've been lied to, i've been deceived, i've been heartbroken, i've had parents divorced and broken up (has nothing to do with this), i've been lied to, i've been taken advantage off, i've had hope, i've had my spirit broken, i've had myself put in the brink of death countless times...what is one life to the world? i've grown so much, and have done nothing with myself? i AM nothing, i HAVE nothing, and yet i gave EVERYTHING, oh well life sucks life is hell, if you don't ever hear from me again, is cuz' i conquered my fear of death ,and have at least accomplished one thing in life, DIE... //_- heart heart heart
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