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This seems to be new to me. I am, by nature , a very private person. I want as much as possible to keep all of my life cryptic, and that severing myself from others gives me a taint of tranquility. Yet just as I take a peek at the real world, I feel as if a demon possesses me and scrambles my routinary system, begrudging me to give in and unfold what's needed to be unfolded.

Yes. I'm new to this because I am new in her and everything which surrounds me obstruct my old, newly-distorted system. I feel both alienated and comforted by the fact that I am sculpting something which I intend to pursue. I know that by the timeI start pouring these long-kept emotions, I can't help but narrate them in complete details.

I am a newbie, a former online gamer(PERFECT WORLD, RF ONLINE). I joined Gaia and this guild not because I was bored or banned due to a grave misdemeanor but because internally I felt I wasn't part of that game's family umbrella, that there was something I am looking for, a ground where I could exercise my rights, where I could make use of the so called democracy, where I could shout out my grievances. With God's grace, I'm here in Gaia, making the most of my title, a bona fide IWON Clan family member.(part na nga ba ako ng family na to?)

A year ago, I accidentally bump unto this site and cvreated this account but it was just a few months back when i started updating my avatar and join this guild. At last I'm here. Yet, the satisfaction I was looking for wasn't evident in my logging in and out of the site or scanning the forums huge collection of topics, or even by hanging out with the coolest barkada in towns. I instead found it in the rights harbored in newbies to ask for help and to initiate wortthwile plans for the newbies' welfare.

When it comes to newbies' welfare, Ive seen and at last understood the real essence of radicalism. I can even forsee myself in the future, being one of the guys who have been vigilant, who were altruist in there own ways and whose endless pursuits rest on the newbies' welfare. Yes, someday, I'll be one of them. Somehow I could trash this impertinent system whisch is breaking me down.

Now that I'm slowly but carefully molding my avatar, I can't let a moment pass without gawking and meditating on what I am trying to retract. My old system seems to be inept from the complexities of life but my decision is healing it, only here in GAIA and IWON Clan where I feel I belong.

As of the moment, I still keenly observe the eminence of the GUILD LEADERS and how I greatly adore their avatars. You can see my cheery face watching the newbies(ako rin) asking for donations. But queries keep lingering in my mind like, "Will their pleadings be given absolute solution? Will the newbies' welfare be respected by the bosses?"

Answers? That I don't know, but still I will not let this exquisite chance to pass me by. I'll have to make the most of it. How fulfilling it would be! For me, it's a wondrous beginning after a tragic end, and that, eventually, as I build for myself something credible, I hope that a wondrous beginning will yield a wondrous ending, ONLI IN IWON CLAN.