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Because of all the confusion, I decided to break up with my bf. I had miss-understood my feelings, and I relized there is a certain someone whom I was with before, that I couldn't stop thinking about.
I relized, I want Greg back.

And I talked to people about it, and they said that it wouldn't be fair to him if I left him thinking all I wanted was to be with im, when I really feel that way about someone else.
So I had a long disscussion, and I was told it would hurt him more if I kept lying about it.
So, I broke it off.

Now, Eric is really upset with me. He hates me, and doesn't believe me when I say I didn't mean to hurt him.
He wont listen to what I have to say, and I feel horrible, but his reactions, are annoying me so deeply, I myself am begining to hate him.

I think I know what it is though... He's mad because I wont go back to him, and he doesn't want to hear that it wasn't to hurt him, or it'll make it worse.

I think though I'll just stay clear of him until he forgives me.

There is also another someone who I've become very fond of over time. And the problem is, I can't have him.
You see, he happens to be Falon's ex, and she will get very mad at me if I take him away from her.
She is trying to get him back, but he isn't very much interested in getting her back, but he's still off-limits.


It feels like everyone I love, I can't have. Even if by chance they love me back, it wont ever happen.
Greg hates me, so he'll never be mine again... cry
And the other one, is my friends, so I can't have him either... crying

I don't know what to do.. And I feel so bad for dumping Eric because he did NOTHING wrong...

*sigh*... I hope none of the guys read this... gonk

Anyway, thats my update!

Love you lots!

Silver Poison