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omg...he is so ignoring me and so not talking to me.
what should i do?
sometimes i think he doesnt like me for who i am
and just to make me happy
his best friend is bothering me a lot
and he use to like me
and still does
but my friend likes him
and dats the problem
at least he only wants my happiness
and to him he says its to be with the guy i like
but the guy i like doesnt seem to want to talk to me
because he knows his best friend still likes me
i wish that he was the only boy dat likes me
but if i know him
he wouldnt be that person to be with
y is it like that?
because he cant let go of a girl?
because he doesnt like me for who i truly am?
or maybe because he doesnt even like me at all?
it could be either one of these questions and i think it would be the last one...
it seems like i dont want to like him
but at the same time
i cant let go of this feeling i have deep down in mai heart
this feeling that only came when i started liking him
and this feeling everytime i look at him
this special feeling never came with anyone else that i liked.
and i know that it means its a symbol of deep love for that person
but i want to know the truth
the way he truly feels about me
and not some lie to make me feel better
i hope that it is that way
that i would always be with him
just like in mai dreams
and whenever i think of him
i wish that he would know how i feel deep down in my heart
and that he would tell me truthfully how he feels about me
i really want to know
because if he doesnt want to make me sad
he would tell me
making him not tell me
is the reason i actually become sad
if he doesnt want to talk to me and completly ignore me
im fine with that
just as long as he tells me how he truly feels
and i'll be so much better

*to others it may be nothing...
to my friends it may be something...
to me its a complete obsession...