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No, it's not really foggy. Nor is it rainy. Or anything. It was a beautiful day, weather wise. Socially (meaning work and school) speaking it might as well have been hailing, pieces of hail the size of grapefruits that is.

I feel as if I can't seem to keep anything straight or clear. It seems the only thing keeping me straight is the thought that tomorrow is a new day without any mistakes yet. But at the same time, in my heart, I know that isn't true. I read my scriptures today. Started back in Nephi again (Book of Mormon - -- yes I 'm one of those mormon freaks, and proud of it). It seemed that I needed to hear the lesson about the Iron Rod. I needed something to stand on today and I found it. All day it seemed a fog followed me or that I was thrust round and round in circles. Truely, I find peace when I return to my foundation, Christ. But, it's hard to see and stand straight when you are spinning in a cloud.

Also, I feel like I've masked myself. I don't know or understand why, but I have. My dreams are dark of late (not to quote Lord of the Rings or anything), but they are. Yesterday I woke up with a bloody nose. Last night my right arm pulsed again. I was sword fighting in my dreams again. Maybe this Sunday I'll go to the Carson Ward and ask for a blessing.