I'm afraid I'm slipping away from reality. I've come to hate life. Not like an emo hate....but just a...I've given up because it never gets better hate. My family is broke again, and I feel like there is nothing good anymore. If it wasn't for Devon and her ever lasting love and affection, I'd feel like dieing, and I hate sucidal people. But even though I love Devon with all my heart, I would truly sacrifice my life for hers, sometimes I find my self getting annoyed with her, and it makes me feel like s**t. I hate that I would even think that, because she is always been there for me. Maybe it's just stress... I try to look happy for my parents, friends. And I do...but inside, it's like, I'm not alive anymore. I love my manga and anime still, it helps me to escape, so I probably will love it forever, but everythng else...just makes me think, why? Why should I care?
1. Devon
2. Mom
3. Anime
4. Manga
These things keep me going.
I look towards my future, and ask myself why? I'm not going to do anything great. So i'll be a massage therapist, probably a bartender as well. But does that really make a difference?....I'll try to et my books published, but who knows if that will happen?....
Life just seems like it's not for me anymore....
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