Kisuke...why is it that whenever I think of him...I feel so...happy? But this feeling...it's not happiness. It's something so much better...yet utterly terrifying. Last night, I had a dream. My body is shaking as I write this...but I need to write it down so that the generation after me will know of such horrors that occur in our Cursed family. I dreamt that Kisuke-kun and I went to see Misa-sama, as I promised to myself I would. We entered and sat before her, and I could distinctly feel the fear and nervousness course through my body like a poison...like venom. She suddenly turned, and somehow...she knew of my feelings for Kisuke. She demanded to know who started liking who first...that was when I remembered the journal entry my greatgrandmother Isuzu had written. She told of how a man called Hatori-san nearly lost his left eye to Akito-sama, because of her cruel jealousy. How she severely hurt Kisa-san, Tohru Honda-san, Kureno-san, and Isuzu-san. In her journal, she said that when Akito-sama found out about her relationship with Haru-san, she grew severely jealous and my greatgrandmother ended up being pushed out of a two story window. My dreams last night were similar. Yet instead of Isuzu-san laying there bleeding...I saw myself. Misa-sama grew angrier and angrier before beginning to hurt Kisuke...and...I saw myself try to pull her back when she came and began to choke me...then she said...that I wasn't needed. That no one would ever love me...and that I was better off dead. She pushed me, and I felt as though I were falling. The next thing I know, I'm sitting up in bed covered in a cold sweat and panting like crazy. Thinking about it now, I realize what this pain and joy in my heart is. I know what it is for sure and that Kisuke is the one to which it belongs to. If there ever comes a time where Misa-sama directs her anger towards him, I will gladly intervene, no matter what the cost. I believe I would do anything to keep him protected from her. Anything. And I think, I've come to a very important decision. I will start to look for a way to break this Curse. The one that binds us all to Misa-sama. The one that binds us Juunishi together, into one room, for that neverending banquet. And I know now, without a doubt, that there are some sort of bonds forming between Kisuke and I. Perhaps I'm being naive and not thinking clearly...but I don't care. Heh. I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life.
~Izu
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