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SEP-07-2006

i have so much bad things in my life
When i was little all the time i was the second one they love more my cousin then me my grandmother thing that i'm a thief she things that i take her all her things and i'm mad at that..
Then my parents say me that useless, nothing and so much bad things they thing that i don't have feelings or what i get so sad about that..
Well... i get in love and i was very in love with that person i was trying to fit in his life getting like friends talking with him i tell that to my friend and she say it to him that i was in love with him and whan he knows that well... he use me and he have a girlfriend and he use me when i know i get so, so, so i don't have words to say but the two feelings i remember about that was that i get angry and sad at the same time cry burning_eyes
Now i'm in love with another person that i'm scare if it pass the same thing with him but now i'm friend of him since i was little he is my best friend but i don't know if he feels the same about me..
I said to him that i love him but not me i say him in chat but when he get to his house he talk to her sister and she said me that she was red but i don't know if that it's true...
it's all i got to said and i'm gonna write not all the days but i'm gonna trie to do it
thankyou for read it i don't know if so much people read this but i will be so proud if someone read it...