Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

My hands are cold... like ice... these past 3 weeks have been steadily declining. Ihate it. THe worst x-mas ever... A week b4 X-mas eve, Tarquesse Breaks up with me. She told me i should get with thsi guy i've been lusting after these past few weeks. now that's i'm single, i'd love to, just to piss off all those that hated that i was hitting on him. but that's a bad reason. right now i feel abandoned.. Tarq.. well. i'm afraid to look her in teh eyes... Aillanna, well she's kinda mad bout the guy... and Hoku is well the only friend i really trust anymore.. I don't even trust myself... ... i have so many regrets all the time.. people just don't get it.. me lusting after people ifs teh only thing that can keep my mind off my regrets, along with my art. I have started to dispise my art... So I'm playing video games to let off stress.. well.. my gaming skillz have gotten bad over the past year... My life is slowly declining again and i'm not sure how much more i can take... maybe i should tak ethe 200$ i got mor x-mas and go buy myself something to pass the time.... oh well.... there is alot more on my mind than this but i feel you don't need to know...