I just feel like I have to write this somewhere. I need to just get it out before the pain and heart break poisons me.
At about 1 am on June 28 my long time boyrfriend broke up with me. I loved-love him dearly and it totally blindsided me when he told me he thought we should see other people because he no longer loved me. I thought we were happy...but I guess he wasn't. And it just hurts so bad, like someone stabbed me in the heart and is slowly twisting the blade. Sometimes it feels like maybe it will be okay and I can just forget then some small thing will set off a memory and start it all over again. It's been so long since I have felt this kind of heart-breaking pain. I had almost forgotten what it felt like. I know eventually I'll get over him it just seems like it will take forever. And the thing that hurts the most is that maybe I could have avoided this if I had paid more attention.
So to anyone reading this talk to those you love and tell them when you are unhappy, or anything else for that matter, because communication is more important then anything. Make the effort to call just to say "I love you" it may not mean much to you, but to them it could mean the world.
 Kagemi · Sat Jul 01, 2006 @ 06:09am · 1 Comments |
