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I understand that I am good looking. Apparently very. Alrighty then. I understand I have plenty of girls after me, that's fine. But the problem with me is the fact that I have -so- many? Apparently so. I get so much trouble from the batch of them, left and right, that honestly sometimes I cant take it.
Right now 90% of my Buddy List on MSN is blocked because of such problems. I dont understand why im so attractive. Why? Can anyone explain?
Didnt think so, nobody really can.
I can totally understand I have a kind caring personality (hahahaha), or whatever it may be, I can live with that explanation, but why is it that girls can just see a PICTURE of me and go "OOOOOOOOOOOOOO"?. (I've had it happen. X.x)
I know this sounds really self-centered, but its about all I can really say. =x
And on the flipside.
My problems? I cant ask a girl out.
Ever.
Except online, and thats just not cool.
I cant really date anyone except IRL (Sorry online babes. <3) and I just cant muster the nerve or anything to ask. I just plain get nervous and all crappy feeling and cant do it. My best friends Hansmeyer and Murphy have absolutely no problem (They go through like 2 girls a week), but me... I dunno.
Why does this have to happen to me? ;.;
I have no problems online because if it goes bad I can just block them, no hard feelings, move on. (Sounds pretty harsh, but...), but irl they can stalk me and stuff, like my ex-girlfriend is doing right now. x.X
I honestly dont know what to do anymore.
I emotionally need a girlfriend to have around, to hug, to cherish, to give kisses and hold her whenever she is sad or whatever. To give her presents and enjoy her laugh and whenever she's happy.
All that sappy bullshit.
But I cant. Why? I live in lame a** Washington State, pretty much all the girls here suck, and like previous stated, I cant date online girls.
-sigh-
Does this make me a horrid person for being who I am? Igniting hopes but not being able to fulfill them? Sounding so damned emo when I just want to get out whats on my shoulders? :s
Theres my first journal since I got grounded. ;.;
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If it helps I can't ever seem to ask a boy out xD
You're not a horrid person Jrek, and I know you'll find someone out there in that crazy real life world n_________n