God, why do i effing suck so much? Ben neglects to call me, and only see's me once a week. Yet if i broke up with him i know my insecurities would dominate indefinatly. I would never be able to cope with the emense feeling of the lonliness i would be consumed with and the uber guilt my parents would shower me with and only make it worse. Is it me? Am i doing somthing wrong like the oposite end of a magnet? Making my other end push further away no matter how hard i try to hold it together? If you could comment with any possible answers/reasons on what to do help me please...
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