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I haven't been on here much and I haven't journaled much. I admit, I'm a bit scared to look back at all the previous entries or simply re-read this later. Right now, my arm is hurting very badly. About a month ago there was a large bruise on the middle of my forearm and after the bruise went away, there was a time where it did not hurt. However, in the past week it has grown considerably more painful. I cannot wave or open may hand without it hurting. I see the doctor tomorrow to see what's up. I'm thinking either a cyst or a hairline fracture? I have no experience or knowledge with these such things so it's anyone's guess.

This injury means I don't get to work tomorrow, a total bummer. I've grown really fond of the kids I've been watching lately (by the way, typing hurts like a b***h so this all might be cut short at any point). Just because a kid is angry does not mean they are bad or mean kids. I wish I could be friends with all of them. I don't care for the little girls very much... but I like the older kids and most of the lads. They play better games than the girls.

I've hung out with Dev a bit more this summer and I have a new person that I'm sort of seeing but not really? We're talking about transitioning to either friends with benefits or possibly dating for real. I met him through pokemon Go. I made a bunch of new acquaintances through that at first. Of course, I can't play it at the moment due to my injury and I've sort of fallen behind :C I'm really bummed about that! I've been super social lately. This summer has been jam packed busy. I rarely come home and find myself with nothing to do. I hangout with my mom or have projects like roleplays or mixtapes and I have lots of friend events.

I'm happy. I truly am. There was a lot of drama with the Jon stuff that is coming to a final close. He contacted my brother and said he actually had my stuff, he was just saying he threw it all out to hurt me. Congrats, he did hurt me. So my brother is helping me out with all that. I try not to think about it. In my mind all that stuff is still destroyed. I won't believe it until I see it all. ******** him. I'm still deeply hurt about that whole business, and rightfully so.

I wish I owned more work appropriate clothes. I have been wearing the same clothes over and over, but it is getting old to me. I don't want to spend more money cause I need to save up. I should go get a real job... I just, I'm so happy where I am. I am comfortable. I will scrimp and save if it means to keep doing what I'm doing now for a few more months. :C it is wonderful to be with these kids and the teachers are awesome possum. Unfortunately, I am getting a bit tan. That's the big downside, Haha.

I attempted to draw art for my mixtapes of the ages, but got distracted with life. I mean, it looks great but I was doing the depressing cd so I would not have gotten far regardless. I'd love to finish MAKING the 24th year mixtape. That one is all set but I keep playing with the order. I wrote the events summary on my board but who knows if that will actually help or not. I need to be in sync with that level to really finish it.