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Hello... *sigh* I'm not the happiest right now. cry
Our dog died the other night. crying She had some illness that made her pancreas like shut down, so she was up all night puking until there was nothing else to puke up, then she kept gagging and moaning. crying I sobbed all night listening to her, until the noise stopped and I knew she was dead. crying We had taken her to the vet the earlier, and they took some blood tests, but they didn't know what was wrong with her until the next day. crying They just gave us some medicine to give her to make her stop puking. crying Well, she puked the medicine up. crying The next day, the doctor called us and told us her sickness was serious and we need to get her into the hospital right away. crying At that point, it was too late; she was already dead. crying That morning, I sobbed to Sora about it, then felt better and didn't cry til around lunch time, when one of my other friends asked me what was wrong. crying I couldn't help but get a little teary when I told her. crying cry
Well, ever since that, I've just been down on the inside. I've tried to hide it (and done a darn good job about it) cuz I don't want anyone to know. I don't know why really...I guess it's just because no one wants a bummed out person to be around them because it's so boring. I don't want people to be bored I guess...plus, everyone has their own problems, they don't need to be worried about mine (though I kinda doubt many people really would be worried; half of the people I know, including my family, wouldn't care and would think I'm just trying to get attention...) stare
Today was kinda strange for me. I woke up at 2:39 p.m., to the phone ringing. I was still really tired after that and didn't want to get out of bed. Mom said she just let me stay home today, cuz she couldn't get me up this morning. I woke up for about an hour when I went on my bike ride today, but other than that, I've just been so tired, I can hardly stand it. I think it's because I've been down like this, and I've been growing. It stinks being a teen and all that growing and stuff; just tires you out.
Geeze, I just can't get over the fact that our dog is dead. She wasn't that old...she just got sick and died...it all happened so fast too. It doesn't seem like one can just get sick and die that very day. cry
I'm outta here, see you space cowboy. sad