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Okay, maybe it still sucks. But not that much. Not anymore.
For some reason I get in really random inspired moods, which is great. I'm glad that I'm having this feeling.

However what I'm feeling is really mysterious. What am I feeling? I want to say "******** all of you" to most of my friends but I know I won't mean it. I really need friends that are more understanding and friendly. I'm getting sick of the immatureness my friends have. That's probably because they're mostly guys. /: SO YEAH. GIRLFRIENDS. I NEED YOU.

But at the same time I'm happy..? I don't know. I should probably be upset in this current situation. But I'm happy.

But then I'm suicidal again. I feel distant. It's not like I'm having moodswings, I'm having this feelings at the same time. Conflicted feelings. ********' hate 'em.

Bleep blooop. I'm going to Oregon tomorrow, so I don't have to go to school. YEAAH DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH s**t.

~Vanessa