no one cares... im just a person on a list... i feel like im losing my friends... and now my mom is starting to change too :/ i have maybe 2 people that i can talk to about things and one of them really listens and helps and they other just kind of sit back and listen and dont really say muh except maybe "oh im sorry" i wish i had someone who actually cared aout me, yeah people can say it but it takes alot to mean it and to show it... i'm always trying to impress people i shouldnt be and all i do is end up geting hurt, unnoticed, or just oushed to the side... someone to give me randon hugs and now and then or someone to just mesage me to say hi and let me know they care... i sometimes wonder why i'm alive... i don't really have anything to live for... except not breaking the heartys of people who "love me" but i'm sure they would get over it in a heartbeat and be like "ohh what a loss it was to loose Jailyn... hey whowants pie?!" .... :/ -sigh- im glad i have a journal... i cant tell this to anyone because they would think im just some sad emo person trying to get attention and im not.. this is just how i feel...
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