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Why do I stick to crappy friends that don't give a CRAP about me? Why? Why? JUST WHY?

Yeah, the guy who said that he would talk to me about the mutual friend that was being a complete a** to me, he didn't even talk to me. Heck, he acted as if he DIDN'T want to talk to me. All I was doing was being nice to him. I want to leave him alone, but I don't want to. He used to be my BEST BESTIEST BEST BEST friend in the world, suddenly SOMETHING happens and everything changes.

He can be so mysterious sometimes. I don't know what he wants, and that's what intrigues me so much. I take a gamble to see if we can go back to those old times again. But I never learn, I always get hurt in the end. I'm really stubborn, and I'm being uber stubborn about this kid. I simply just.. won't give up. Because I worked tooooooo hard to just suddenly give up and lose this friend forever. I don't want to lose ANYONE in my life, especially if that person was really close to you. I'm sensitive, I can't change that. I will get hurt if he leaves and it's nearly impossible to get him back. I'm avoiding ANY possible chance of that happening.

Wow I just completely spilled out my feelings in three minutes... o___o That doesn't happen often.

~Vanessa