Right now I'd really like to understand. I'd like to understand why I'm so angry all the time, why it's always just underneath the surface. It won't even be my intention and I'll just flip out and I have no idea. The things I've put up with for so long so easily just suddenly start to grate on my nerves and I just can't....*sigh*
I'd like to understand why I feel so alone. Why, even though I have friends around me, I feel completely empty the second they're gone. Why, even when I'm with them, I want to distance myself. And why, when I'm not with them, I want to be.
And...I'd really like to understand why I'm not happy.
My life could be so much worse and I know it...
But....
I'm not happy.
And I don't know why.
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