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I knew this was going to happen... I should have never went to sleep at all.. When I was going to bed I had started to get depressed.. I eventually found sleep after laying down for awhile.. Now that I wake up, I wish I had never went to sleep in the first place... I'm really depressed now, I don't know why I wake up like this, I hate it, it makes me wish I'd just die... That emptiness came back and I felt it as soon as I woke up.. Its as bad if not worse than it was last night..

I haven't been dreaming lately as far as I can tell.. When I sleep there's nothing there, and when I awake I don't remember anything that may have been like a dream.. I'm starting to miss them..

I really miss the girl I love.. I hate not being able to talk to her for so long.. I considered calling her to hear her voice again, but I didn't think she'd want me to do that, so I'll continue waiting until I can talk to her again...

(Remember me one foot in front of the other, you'll make it)