Getting angry.
I keep telling myself I have to give it more time. That I cannot judge my relationship with others based on such a short period of time. I thought eventually I would be proven wrong but I have only been proven right. There are some who care about me but the majority have clearly made their decision. If ever confronted with me saying I think they don't want to be friends anymore they would refute my accusation. However I know that they do not hold our friendship at the same level of importance that I do. It has been made clear by their lack of attempts to remain in contact, as well as their unwillingness to put the smallest effort into making plans. When I say I love you I mean it. I have told every single one of them that. I DO mean it. They tell me they love me too. I am often asked why it is that I do not believe others when they say they love me. The amount of people I love who once said they loved me who no longer speak with me should be answer enough.
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