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My friends know me very well and most only see the side of me outside of my home, Hardly anyone has seen what my life is like inside my home,
today was simple, I got home with a heavy head ache and took two pills for it. My mouth on the inside is cut up mostly from me biting on my tongue or accedently nawing on the inside of my mouth. I got on my comp and did some stuff after awile i got off to make koolaid for my grandfather. while i was shaking it to stirr it the top slipped and some fell out making a mess. I cleaned the mess as best i could then when i checked it my grandmother looked and started bitching. for me to go get a rag or something. I picked up one we used for normal messes. She bitched and told me to go away bitching about how i cant do anything right.

People if im not perfect she bitches. Im expected to bite my tongue and ignore it. I often cry because i hate being treated like s**t. But sometimes i cut. Cutting is a serious problem yet its a habitual thing for me. Sometimes its all i can do not to cry or even feel pain anymore...